I know the Lord is with me. I posted yet another controversial article http://www.facebook.com/ext/share.php?sid=120021161816&h=w2m2Z&u=idwcV&ref=mf on facebook and comments came flooding. I guess my liberal friends don't like it when I do that. I knew it was a spiritual warfare so I prayed and prayed before I did anything else and my prayer was answered by a friend who posted 2 min before me. I didn't feel alone. I knew God is a miracle worker. I know He was able to show me and affirm me in my faith. He was so full of grace. God thank you for showing up. I can always count on You.
My heart was so grieved with my toddlers today. Abigail lied twice, disobeyed me about jumping across Esther, and ignored me when I asked her to come to me. Isaac... Oh Isaac, he spilled everything that was in his hands on purpose the whole day. He sprayed cleaners all over the video camera, he too ignored me when I asked him to come to me. He was a terror today. I was soooo discouraged. I asked people for prayers. I know this is an uphill thing. I have to fight for my kids' hearts and souls. I know that. God help. I know You are the only one able to do this. You are the One to call them to You. All I care is that they will know you and love you and obey you. Give us godly wisdom. Help us follow You. Help us capture their hearts for You. Give them a consuming passion to pursue You. Give me the patience and wisdom to deal with them when they fall short of You glory. Help me gently restore them into Your righteousness and Your love. I need Your help, affirmation and Your grace. AMEN.
Monday, July 6, 2009
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Praise Him all heavenly saints proclaim
Praise the Lord. He has given us wisdom to challenge each other never to yell at each other or at the children. We have committed every morning to do so, and our relationships have gotten more intimate, loving, and peaceful. All we did was one thing. Completely eliminate any yelling. That was it. So simple. And it worked! I am sooo glad we listened and obeyed Him.
One Thing (PS27) Charlie Hall
There's nothing else I can add to Psalm 27. That's all I am. That's all I do. That's all what our family is all about. That's it. This is it. One thing. To know Him and to make Him known. AMen.
One Thing (PS27) Charlie Hall
Single minded, whole hearted, one thing I ask (x2)
That I may gaze upon Your beauty Oh Lord
That I may seek Your Holy Face
That I may know You in an intimate way
And follow after You all of my days
All of life comes down to just one thing
and that's to know You oh Jesus and make You known There's nothing else I can add to Psalm 27. That's all I am. That's all I do. That's all what our family is all about. That's it. This is it. One thing. To know Him and to make Him known. AMen.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Our government
I love our country. I love that we have the freedom to speak up. I love that I can catch every single move that the administration is making. And I love that I can call our reps, email our president, and tell everyone about a law or bill that cannot be passed. I love that. I thank God for that freedom. I pray we will never give up our freedoms by submitting under the UN convention. And I pray that more and more people will exercise their rights and freedom while we still can.
More Americans Sickened at Thought of ObamaCare
The two Senate committees that have written health care "reform" plans are drawing closer to having their final products ready after the July Fourth recess--despite the fact that the Senate Finance Committee hasn't held a single hearing on its legislation. The bills may be moving quickly, but the drive to find support for them has not.
Conservatives are doing all they can to response to the unusually opaque situation take advantage of the situation on Capitol Hill. This morning, I joined a health care panel discussion on Capitol Hill, sponsored by Americans for Tax Reform and the Media Research Center. Sen. Jim DeMint (R-S.C.) participated, rolling out his Health Care Freedom Act, a plan that offers more choices, lower cost, and no tax hikes.
Meanwhile, the President's push took another big hit at the hands of the U.S. Chamber of Commerce, which sent an email blast to members urging them to oppose Sen. Ted Kennedy's (D-Mass.) "dangerous proposal." Apparently, even Sen. Chris Dodd (D-Conn.) was listening. During yesterday's Health, Education, Labor, and Pensions (HELP) mark-up, which Dodd chaired, the Connecticut Senator sounded like a Republican when he said that no one on the HELP Committee would vote for Kennedy's plan if it cost $2.3 trillion to cover 16 million people.
Dodd may have retreated on the HELP proposal, but his committee still made plenty of waves. During yesterday's hearing, Democrats defeated three amendments that should frighten every American. As the Health Care Freedom Coalition describes it, "One amendment would have required health care price disclosure and health care quality results (i.e., which doctors and hospitals are good). Two other amendments sought to ensure that the government could not ration health care..." The Democrats voted against each amendment, meaning that they support the rationing system.
As FRC has argued, rationing would mean limited treatments and delayed service for patients. Under the government-run plans in England and Canada, the countries' sick and elderly aren't getting the care they need. As a result, their system isn't improving lives but prematurely taking them. Here in the United States, Obama's rationing would mean that you and I could be denied basic care while our tax dollars are used to underwrite a mother choosing to end the life of her unborn child.
At least we can all keep our health care plans if we like them, right? Wrong. In this exchange between ABC's Jake Tapper and President Obama, it appears the White House is backing off of that promise too.
JAKE TAPPER: "...If the government is offering a cheaper health care plan, then lots of employers will want to have their employees covered by that cheaper plan... And then their employees would be signed up for this public plan, which would violate what you're promising the American people, that they will not have to change health care plans if they like the plan they have... [W]hat about keeping your promise to the American people..."
OBAMA: "...When I say if you have your plan and you like it, and your doctor has a plan--or you have a doctor and you like your doctor, that you don't have to change plans, what I'm saying is the government is not going to make you change plans under health reform."
That's quite a shift from last Monday, when the President swore, "...No one will take [your plan] away, no matter what." Under Obama, the private sector is dying the death of a thousand cuts, not one killing stroke.
Monday in a Harlem middle school, U.S. Ambassador to the United Nations Susan Rice told a group of 120 students that administration officials are actively discussing “when and how it might be possible to join” (that is, ratify) the UN Convention on the Rights of the Child (CRC). As before, she also communicated what a disgrace it is that the U.S. would stand with only Somalia against such a widely-accepted treaty.
This is the first direct public statement by the Obama administration that it will seek ratification of the UN CRC.
In my 30 years of political involvement, I have learned to recognize this as what is called a “trial balloon.” Like in World War I trench warfare, our opponents have “sent up a balloon” to see if it will draw fire. If things remain quiet, they will proceed with their plans to push for ratification of the CRC in the U.S. Senate.
To discourage them from doing so, we need to make sure that our voices are heard with unmistakable clarity. We must let the Obama administration know that we oppose this anti-family, anti-American treaty.
Here’s what we need you all to do:
1. Call the White House comments line at 202-456-1111. Tell them you heard the administration wants to ratify the CRC, and you strongly oppose this giving away of U.S. sovereignty to the UN. Also keep in mind that this treaty gives the government jurisdiction to override any decision made by any parent if the government thinks that a better decision can be made—even if there is no proof of any harm.
2. Call Ambassador Susan Rice’s office at the United Nations. Tell her that you want her to represent the United States to the world rather than trying to get the United States to go along with international law initiated by the UN. Her office number is 212-415-4000.
3. Contact your Senators and urge them to oppose ratification of this treaty. (Find your Senators’ contact information by typing your zip code into the box here.) Ask them also to defeat it once and for all by cosponsoring SJRes 16 – the Parental Rights Amendment.
God Help our President to make wise decisions. Help our countrymen to wake up and call on these erroneous bills and laws. Help me to raise our kids to love the truth and stand up for the truth. Help me to become the godly woman that You want. I want to be a Christ centered mom and wife. Help me to be an encouragement to my husband. Help me to be a source of light to my kids. AMEN.
More Americans Sickened at Thought of ObamaCare
The two Senate committees that have written health care "reform" plans are drawing closer to having their final products ready after the July Fourth recess--despite the fact that the Senate Finance Committee hasn't held a single hearing on its legislation. The bills may be moving quickly, but the drive to find support for them has not.
Conservatives are doing all they can to response to the unusually opaque situation take advantage of the situation on Capitol Hill. This morning, I joined a health care panel discussion on Capitol Hill, sponsored by Americans for Tax Reform and the Media Research Center. Sen. Jim DeMint (R-S.C.) participated, rolling out his Health Care Freedom Act, a plan that offers more choices, lower cost, and no tax hikes.
Meanwhile, the President's push took another big hit at the hands of the U.S. Chamber of Commerce, which sent an email blast to members urging them to oppose Sen. Ted Kennedy's (D-Mass.) "dangerous proposal." Apparently, even Sen. Chris Dodd (D-Conn.) was listening. During yesterday's Health, Education, Labor, and Pensions (HELP) mark-up, which Dodd chaired, the Connecticut Senator sounded like a Republican when he said that no one on the HELP Committee would vote for Kennedy's plan if it cost $2.3 trillion to cover 16 million people.
Dodd may have retreated on the HELP proposal, but his committee still made plenty of waves. During yesterday's hearing, Democrats defeated three amendments that should frighten every American. As the Health Care Freedom Coalition describes it, "One amendment would have required health care price disclosure and health care quality results (i.e., which doctors and hospitals are good). Two other amendments sought to ensure that the government could not ration health care..." The Democrats voted against each amendment, meaning that they support the rationing system.
As FRC has argued, rationing would mean limited treatments and delayed service for patients. Under the government-run plans in England and Canada, the countries' sick and elderly aren't getting the care they need. As a result, their system isn't improving lives but prematurely taking them. Here in the United States, Obama's rationing would mean that you and I could be denied basic care while our tax dollars are used to underwrite a mother choosing to end the life of her unborn child.
At least we can all keep our health care plans if we like them, right? Wrong. In this exchange between ABC's Jake Tapper and President Obama, it appears the White House is backing off of that promise too.
JAKE TAPPER: "...If the government is offering a cheaper health care plan, then lots of employers will want to have their employees covered by that cheaper plan... And then their employees would be signed up for this public plan, which would violate what you're promising the American people, that they will not have to change health care plans if they like the plan they have... [W]hat about keeping your promise to the American people..."
OBAMA: "...When I say if you have your plan and you like it, and your doctor has a plan--or you have a doctor and you like your doctor, that you don't have to change plans, what I'm saying is the government is not going to make you change plans under health reform."
That's quite a shift from last Monday, when the President swore, "...No one will take [your plan] away, no matter what." Under Obama, the private sector is dying the death of a thousand cuts, not one killing stroke.
Monday in a Harlem middle school, U.S. Ambassador to the United Nations Susan Rice told a group of 120 students that administration officials are actively discussing “when and how it might be possible to join” (that is, ratify) the UN Convention on the Rights of the Child (CRC). As before, she also communicated what a disgrace it is that the U.S. would stand with only Somalia against such a widely-accepted treaty.
This is the first direct public statement by the Obama administration that it will seek ratification of the UN CRC.
In my 30 years of political involvement, I have learned to recognize this as what is called a “trial balloon.” Like in World War I trench warfare, our opponents have “sent up a balloon” to see if it will draw fire. If things remain quiet, they will proceed with their plans to push for ratification of the CRC in the U.S. Senate.
To discourage them from doing so, we need to make sure that our voices are heard with unmistakable clarity. We must let the Obama administration know that we oppose this anti-family, anti-American treaty.
Here’s what we need you all to do:
1. Call the White House comments line at 202-456-1111. Tell them you heard the administration wants to ratify the CRC, and you strongly oppose this giving away of U.S. sovereignty to the UN. Also keep in mind that this treaty gives the government jurisdiction to override any decision made by any parent if the government thinks that a better decision can be made—even if there is no proof of any harm.
2. Call Ambassador Susan Rice’s office at the United Nations. Tell her that you want her to represent the United States to the world rather than trying to get the United States to go along with international law initiated by the UN. Her office number is 212-415-4000.
3. Contact your Senators and urge them to oppose ratification of this treaty. (Find your Senators’ contact information by typing your zip code into the box here.) Ask them also to defeat it once and for all by cosponsoring SJRes 16 – the Parental Rights Amendment.
God Help our President to make wise decisions. Help our countrymen to wake up and call on these erroneous bills and laws. Help me to raise our kids to love the truth and stand up for the truth. Help me to become the godly woman that You want. I want to be a Christ centered mom and wife. Help me to be an encouragement to my husband. Help me to be a source of light to my kids. AMEN.
Friday, June 19, 2009
Oh Lord transform me
I don't like my own attitude. I go through the day with 2 toddlers and a almost 3 mth old and it's hard to be kind all the time. I am trying so hard to be kind, patient, gentle, and encouraging. Sometimes, I succeed and other times, I don't. I also want to be more encouraging to my husband. I want to build others up, not one who tears down. I have prayed for the Lord to transform me. And I know He's not done with me yet. I just feel like I am messing my kids up because I am not completely transformed. I am so eager to be transformed by Him. I get so nervous sometimes thinking about it. I think I need to let go and sail with Him. I am always worried about what I am doing might hinder my husband and kids that my attitude gets even worse. Lord, carry my burden and let me take up Your yoke. Help me to let go and let You reign in me. I know I will never get there by my own efforts. Let me decrease so You can increase. God, help me forgive those who have wronged me. Help me believe that You can free me from unforgiveness. I pray that You will continue to work in me so others may see You in me and my family. Purify my every thought, action, and word. Give me a clean heart. Help me guide my children to You and capture their hearts for You. AMEN.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
VOTE NO on hate crimes legislation
http://www.citizenlink.org/CLtopstories/A000010249.cfm
I do not agree with killing anything that can grow which includes fetuses. If you think about it, you can compare the fetus to two things. Flies and flowers. I hate flies. I kill flies all the time because they are annoying and dirty. Flowers, I love growing flowers, and I always urge my kids not to go into those flower beds so the flowers don't get trampled and die. To me, the fetus is a flower not a fly. I don't agree with abortion. Now in America, there are certain rights for certain people. Apparently if the majority of people agree that a certain type of murder is not murder anymore, then it's okay to murder. So, I'll give you that, and agree that it is okay to have free will and do whatever you want to do. The problem is, these people who like to kill also are encouraging others to kill and taking parents out of the picture.
Our parental rights are actively being threatened. The Universal court has an international law that gives children rights. If the US decides to go under this court, we are in trouble. If my child cries in public, the CPS can take my child away without answers or questions. So, apparently, if our kids want to have sex and have abortions, we don't have a right as parents to say no, especially if we had some mumbo jumbo religious reason. And of course, who is telling all these kids that it's okay to have "safe sex", the Comprehensive Sex Education program! It is a monopoly for activist organizations like Planned Parenthood.
There is one reason why I do not support govt schools. Activists. Gay activists, religious activists, anti life activists... you name it. They get to our next generation, they get the vote, and they know it.
I have blogged many times on tolerance. As Christians, we are the intolerant these days. Truth has become impressionistic. Oh, if it's true to you, then it's obviously true to you. What a bunch of bull. I remember watching a commercial on KERA where a bunch of blind folded kids stuck their hands into a huge bowl of spaghetti. Well, each kid had a uniquely ridiculous answer. Snakes, slimy worms, dragon hair,... I was truly disappointed that they never announced that there was only one true answer! SPAGHETTI! Those kids can think they are worms all they want, but the truth is that it was not worms! This society encourages its people to be blinded to the truth. So apparently, because of this, those who stand up for what is right and what is true (absolute truth) are wrong and intolerant. How sad and backwards.
Anyway, we know this is all about one thing. Warfare for the next generation's souls. God, You are sovereign. We love because You have first loved us. But those who don't love You will never know love. Forgive us as we fall short every day. Help us to persevere through trials, persecution, ridicule, and hatred. We need You more than ever and I ask You to set our children apart for You. Help us. Help us raise our kids to love You and Your word more than anything in this world. Help them to see You in us. Help us to live our lives through You and love them. We need You in our home. Continue to transform us so that we will become who You want us to be. Continue to use us and stretch our faith. Show us Your glory. AMEN.
I do not agree with killing anything that can grow which includes fetuses. If you think about it, you can compare the fetus to two things. Flies and flowers. I hate flies. I kill flies all the time because they are annoying and dirty. Flowers, I love growing flowers, and I always urge my kids not to go into those flower beds so the flowers don't get trampled and die. To me, the fetus is a flower not a fly. I don't agree with abortion. Now in America, there are certain rights for certain people. Apparently if the majority of people agree that a certain type of murder is not murder anymore, then it's okay to murder. So, I'll give you that, and agree that it is okay to have free will and do whatever you want to do. The problem is, these people who like to kill also are encouraging others to kill and taking parents out of the picture.
Our parental rights are actively being threatened. The Universal court has an international law that gives children rights. If the US decides to go under this court, we are in trouble. If my child cries in public, the CPS can take my child away without answers or questions. So, apparently, if our kids want to have sex and have abortions, we don't have a right as parents to say no, especially if we had some mumbo jumbo religious reason. And of course, who is telling all these kids that it's okay to have "safe sex", the Comprehensive Sex Education program! It is a monopoly for activist organizations like Planned Parenthood.
There is one reason why I do not support govt schools. Activists. Gay activists, religious activists, anti life activists... you name it. They get to our next generation, they get the vote, and they know it.
I have blogged many times on tolerance. As Christians, we are the intolerant these days. Truth has become impressionistic. Oh, if it's true to you, then it's obviously true to you. What a bunch of bull. I remember watching a commercial on KERA where a bunch of blind folded kids stuck their hands into a huge bowl of spaghetti. Well, each kid had a uniquely ridiculous answer. Snakes, slimy worms, dragon hair,... I was truly disappointed that they never announced that there was only one true answer! SPAGHETTI! Those kids can think they are worms all they want, but the truth is that it was not worms! This society encourages its people to be blinded to the truth. So apparently, because of this, those who stand up for what is right and what is true (absolute truth) are wrong and intolerant. How sad and backwards.
Anyway, we know this is all about one thing. Warfare for the next generation's souls. God, You are sovereign. We love because You have first loved us. But those who don't love You will never know love. Forgive us as we fall short every day. Help us to persevere through trials, persecution, ridicule, and hatred. We need You more than ever and I ask You to set our children apart for You. Help us. Help us raise our kids to love You and Your word more than anything in this world. Help them to see You in us. Help us to live our lives through You and love them. We need You in our home. Continue to transform us so that we will become who You want us to be. Continue to use us and stretch our faith. Show us Your glory. AMEN.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Reporting live from Fort Worth Texas
Love our life here. Love our church here. Love what God's doing in our family. Love the people God has brought into our lives.
People have come up to me, teachers, friends, family, telling me that God has given Abigail, wisdom beyond her years. I never gave it much thought and thought people are just being nice until.... Yesterday, Phill was just doing a usual round to the homeless on Hemphill. Abigail asked if she could go. We told her she could and I reminded her to be friendly but be careful. When she heard that her friends were coming over, she asked if she could stay home. So I pulled her aside and I asked her one question, "Has God put the homeless in your heart?" She looked at me and nodded. I was taken by surprised. But I told her if God has put them in her heart, then she has to first obey God. That when she comes home, her friends will be here. But what God has put in her heart is important for her to do. Her friends came over, everyone got ready, and she left with her daddy. I was so proud of her. I almost cried when I told Phill afterwards about the conversation I had with her. I praise God for her and for giving her such wisdom. Lord, thank you for using Abigail and giving her the opportunity to love your people. Continue to teach her, mold her, and speak to her. Open her heart and eyes to You. Help us to guide her in her strengths and weaknesses. We pray that we will be equipped to bring her closer to You. Keep the devil away from her and keep her set apart for You. You know her heart and our hearts. Continue to work in us. AMEN.
Quote Benjamin Nockels.........
http://www.glocal.net/blog/comments/mission-community-fellowship/
"If we pursue friendship we can miss out on discipleship.
But if we pursue discipleship we will end up with the best kind of friendship.
If we pursue community we can miss out on a cause.
But if we pursue a cause we will end up with the best kind of community (cause-driven community).
If we pursue church we can miss out on Jesus.
But if we pursue Jesus we will end up with the best kind of church."
People have come up to me, teachers, friends, family, telling me that God has given Abigail, wisdom beyond her years. I never gave it much thought and thought people are just being nice until.... Yesterday, Phill was just doing a usual round to the homeless on Hemphill. Abigail asked if she could go. We told her she could and I reminded her to be friendly but be careful. When she heard that her friends were coming over, she asked if she could stay home. So I pulled her aside and I asked her one question, "Has God put the homeless in your heart?" She looked at me and nodded. I was taken by surprised. But I told her if God has put them in her heart, then she has to first obey God. That when she comes home, her friends will be here. But what God has put in her heart is important for her to do. Her friends came over, everyone got ready, and she left with her daddy. I was so proud of her. I almost cried when I told Phill afterwards about the conversation I had with her. I praise God for her and for giving her such wisdom. Lord, thank you for using Abigail and giving her the opportunity to love your people. Continue to teach her, mold her, and speak to her. Open her heart and eyes to You. Help us to guide her in her strengths and weaknesses. We pray that we will be equipped to bring her closer to You. Keep the devil away from her and keep her set apart for You. You know her heart and our hearts. Continue to work in us. AMEN.
Quote Benjamin Nockels.........
http://www.glocal.net/blog/comments/mission-community-fellowship/
"If we pursue friendship we can miss out on discipleship.
But if we pursue discipleship we will end up with the best kind of friendship.
If we pursue community we can miss out on a cause.
But if we pursue a cause we will end up with the best kind of community (cause-driven community).
If we pursue church we can miss out on Jesus.
But if we pursue Jesus we will end up with the best kind of church."
Friday, April 10, 2009
Finally, 15 days overdue baby #3
Esther Eden Koo
born Mar24 2pm 9lb7oz
We all expected this third baby to arrive in the end of February, and she kept us waiting and waiting!
Esther, literally means "star" (Esther, a young Hebrew girl formerly known as Hadassa, was chosen to be queen of Persia. She was a courageous young woman who confronted a wicked plan that was going to persecute her people even when she faced death); Eden is Hebrew for "delight" (Eden is mentioned once again in the last book of the Bible, Revelation chapter 2, as a place of where the tree of life still resides). We dedicated the Book of Phillipians to her. She is to live out a life described in Phillipians 2:14-16 as a star and be the place where others can find the "tree of Life" at.
Our first born, Abigail (the wise woman who became a wife of King David) is Hebrew and means "joy of her Abba Father"; Elizabeth (Mary's cousin, Jesus' Aunt once removed) is Greek for Hebrew name Elisheva "my God is my oath". We dedicated the book of Proverbs to her. She is to bring joy and glory to God in her life through wisdom, passion, and servanthood.
Our second born, Isaac (son of Abraham who calls God "his Fear") is Hebrew for "he will laugh"; James (half brother of Jesus) is English for Hebrew name Jacob "supplanter". We pray he will rejoice and bring glory to God's kingdom as he learns to become a leader. And of course we dedicated the book of James to him.
born Mar24 2pm 9lb7oz
We all expected this third baby to arrive in the end of February, and she kept us waiting and waiting!
Esther, literally means "star" (Esther, a young Hebrew girl formerly known as Hadassa, was chosen to be queen of Persia. She was a courageous young woman who confronted a wicked plan that was going to persecute her people even when she faced death); Eden is Hebrew for "delight" (Eden is mentioned once again in the last book of the Bible, Revelation chapter 2, as a place of where the tree of life still resides). We dedicated the Book of Phillipians to her. She is to live out a life described in Phillipians 2:14-16 as a star and be the place where others can find the "tree of Life" at.
Our first born, Abigail (the wise woman who became a wife of King David) is Hebrew and means "joy of her Abba Father"; Elizabeth (Mary's cousin, Jesus' Aunt once removed) is Greek for Hebrew name Elisheva "my God is my oath". We dedicated the book of Proverbs to her. She is to bring joy and glory to God in her life through wisdom, passion, and servanthood.
Our second born, Isaac (son of Abraham who calls God "his Fear") is Hebrew for "he will laugh"; James (half brother of Jesus) is English for Hebrew name Jacob "supplanter". We pray he will rejoice and bring glory to God's kingdom as he learns to become a leader. And of course we dedicated the book of James to him.
Monday, March 23, 2009
Monday, March 9, 2009
I will not forget
I have been so frustrated and annoyed. The baby is supposed to come out earlier because it's our third one! I haven't been able to walk, sit, or sleep well for so long. I need to clean the house but can't. I need to spend quality time with my two toddlers but I feel like I haven't. I need to cook but I don't want to. I need to eat but I don't feel like it. I need the baby out, but it's not coming! I find myself getting mad. Getting mad at myself. My body. My baby. My God. We have been in prayer about this VBAC thing and this baby. What's going on??
But I keep reminding myself not to forget. I cannot forget. I will accept God's will in everything. I finished reading this ridiculously long book by Beth Moore yesterday, "To live is Christ". Paul met Jesus on the road to Damascus and I met Jesus on the road to death in my car 5 years ago. I remember the moment when I gave up. Jesus sat in the passenger seat right next to me in my white Ford Taurus. I was hurting, heart broken, purposeless in life, and I remember a supernatural peace came rushing when I cried out for Jesus. It drenched me, my body, physically in something that felt like grace and comfort. He was right across from me. I met Him in my car. I met Jesus face to face. He talked to me and He confronted me. I will never forget. My moment of salvation will always bring tears to my eyes.
Grace like rain. He became my Lord, my Savior, my everything. There's none other from then on. So Lord, I trust in You. Whatever it is You have planned, that's the way it will be. Just give me Your strength, courage, and mercy. God help me. God reveal in me my iniquities. Help me to overcome. You are all powerful and I know You are able to do all things. Bless my children and be with them. Help us to be parents who will always fall on their knees for Your help and mercy. Speak to us and we will listen. We pray Your sovereignty over all things in our lives. AMEN.
Grace Like Rain
Hallelujah, grace like rain falls down on me
Hallelujah, all my stains are washed away, washed away
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EU2h9dXPat0&feature=related
But I keep reminding myself not to forget. I cannot forget. I will accept God's will in everything. I finished reading this ridiculously long book by Beth Moore yesterday, "To live is Christ". Paul met Jesus on the road to Damascus and I met Jesus on the road to death in my car 5 years ago. I remember the moment when I gave up. Jesus sat in the passenger seat right next to me in my white Ford Taurus. I was hurting, heart broken, purposeless in life, and I remember a supernatural peace came rushing when I cried out for Jesus. It drenched me, my body, physically in something that felt like grace and comfort. He was right across from me. I met Him in my car. I met Jesus face to face. He talked to me and He confronted me. I will never forget. My moment of salvation will always bring tears to my eyes.
Grace like rain. He became my Lord, my Savior, my everything. There's none other from then on. So Lord, I trust in You. Whatever it is You have planned, that's the way it will be. Just give me Your strength, courage, and mercy. God help me. God reveal in me my iniquities. Help me to overcome. You are all powerful and I know You are able to do all things. Bless my children and be with them. Help us to be parents who will always fall on their knees for Your help and mercy. Speak to us and we will listen. We pray Your sovereignty over all things in our lives. AMEN.
Grace Like Rain
Hallelujah, grace like rain falls down on me
Hallelujah, all my stains are washed away, washed away
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EU2h9dXPat0&feature=related
On the matter on killing babies
http://www.facebook.com/ext/share.php?sid=53913504270&h=BAJAw&u=BsgRu
I strongly oppose abortion. I think someone who is an advocate of abortion should just strongly consider staying out of the matter.
I strongly oppose abortion. I think someone who is an advocate of abortion should just strongly consider staying out of the matter.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Funny Abigail quotes
I hope to be better at documenting the funny stuff my kids say soon....
"Mommy, I don't feel blue... I feel red"
"I know my shapes, but Isaac is not a shape. He's like a silly monkey."
"Love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your mind, with all your armpit!"
"I don't have socks... but I've got toes!"
"I am a pink dinosaur with red legs, and blue face, and I have green toes, and pink arms."
"Mommy, you look like a walrus"
Phill said "oh good job, your poop looks healthy and strong..." Abigail responded, "do my poopies have muscles?"
"Mommy, I don't feel blue... I feel red"
"I know my shapes, but Isaac is not a shape. He's like a silly monkey."
"Love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your mind, with all your armpit!"
"I don't have socks... but I've got toes!"
"I am a pink dinosaur with red legs, and blue face, and I have green toes, and pink arms."
"Mommy, you look like a walrus"
Phill said "oh good job, your poop looks healthy and strong..." Abigail responded, "do my poopies have muscles?"
Friday, February 13, 2009
Strengths and weaknesses
It has been so difficult to see specific spiritual gifts in Abigail and Isaac. It is so easy to "approve" or "like" or "favor" what one kids does, so we figured we must be liking spiritual gifts we can recognize.
So, Isaac at age 16mth has developed amazing physical skills. He can jump, run, climb up and down anything. He also has amazing communication skills. Isaac has a loving heart too. But what we have been so warmed in our hearts by, is his God given ability to share. He is sinfully still selfish of course, but he loves to be generous. Isaac loves music. I think he would love to learn the drums. He is also in love with books. He cannot survive half a day without reading.
Abigail on the other hand has to be taught a lot more to be generous. Sharing does not make her joyful. But she has amazing coloring skills, attention span, and is already learning to read ( I still can't believe she knows all the phonetic sounds of the alphabets). She loves to organize. She is some kind of a perfectionist. Her spiritual gift is more administrative and hidden. She is very compassionate and knows how to feel for others even though others might not always come first. Abigail loves music too. I think she would love to lead worship one day like me. Abigail loves to talk about God, she asks lots of questions and knows many bible stories. But her understanding and ability to remember details are incredible. She understands that Jesus is the only One that can take her to heaven! She is currently, as of today, inquiring where death takes you. But she knows so much, I am astounded. She knows tons of bible verses, not because we systematically make her memorize it, I don't know if I agree to that, but because we use bible verses throughout the day! I will intentionally get a new verse once a month, but she is able to apply the bible verses to life and not just to her amazing sponge memory.
Recognizing their strengths and weaknesses is essential. We had to sit and think hard of these strengths and weaknesses. Phill and I both have shared how our parents looked down upon what we knew were strengths and nagged us crazy about our weaknesses. They also favored other siblings because their strengths were more "useful". By acknowledging the gifts that God has bestowed on our children, we will encourage their strengths and build their weaknesses in God's timing. Parenting has been so much work because we both have some horrible, deeply rooted, and twisted "skills" from the way we grew up. Only through God's grace and wisdom have we discovered these truths about ourselves and have been transforming ever since. Transformation will never cease since our children have different phases and are in different ages. We will never be able to do it on our own. I pray God will continue to raise us as a family who will glorify His name and Kingdom. His grace and wisdom be with us. Amen.
So, Isaac at age 16mth has developed amazing physical skills. He can jump, run, climb up and down anything. He also has amazing communication skills. Isaac has a loving heart too. But what we have been so warmed in our hearts by, is his God given ability to share. He is sinfully still selfish of course, but he loves to be generous. Isaac loves music. I think he would love to learn the drums. He is also in love with books. He cannot survive half a day without reading.
Abigail on the other hand has to be taught a lot more to be generous. Sharing does not make her joyful. But she has amazing coloring skills, attention span, and is already learning to read ( I still can't believe she knows all the phonetic sounds of the alphabets). She loves to organize. She is some kind of a perfectionist. Her spiritual gift is more administrative and hidden. She is very compassionate and knows how to feel for others even though others might not always come first. Abigail loves music too. I think she would love to lead worship one day like me. Abigail loves to talk about God, she asks lots of questions and knows many bible stories. But her understanding and ability to remember details are incredible. She understands that Jesus is the only One that can take her to heaven! She is currently, as of today, inquiring where death takes you. But she knows so much, I am astounded. She knows tons of bible verses, not because we systematically make her memorize it, I don't know if I agree to that, but because we use bible verses throughout the day! I will intentionally get a new verse once a month, but she is able to apply the bible verses to life and not just to her amazing sponge memory.
Recognizing their strengths and weaknesses is essential. We had to sit and think hard of these strengths and weaknesses. Phill and I both have shared how our parents looked down upon what we knew were strengths and nagged us crazy about our weaknesses. They also favored other siblings because their strengths were more "useful". By acknowledging the gifts that God has bestowed on our children, we will encourage their strengths and build their weaknesses in God's timing. Parenting has been so much work because we both have some horrible, deeply rooted, and twisted "skills" from the way we grew up. Only through God's grace and wisdom have we discovered these truths about ourselves and have been transforming ever since. Transformation will never cease since our children have different phases and are in different ages. We will never be able to do it on our own. I pray God will continue to raise us as a family who will glorify His name and Kingdom. His grace and wisdom be with us. Amen.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Warning on a book - FWD
"Subject: Beware of this book....Oprah is pushing it...
To:
Date: Sunday, February 8, 2009, 8:59 PM
BEWARE!!
If you have children or grandchildren, work with children at church, or you have neighborhood children whose parents you know, please take note of the information below and pass it along to others. Schools are distributing this
book to children through the Scholastic Book Club.
The name of the book is Conversations with God.. James Dobson talked about this book twice this week. It is devastating. Parents, churches and Christian schools need to be aware of it. Please pass this information on to
church/e-mail addresses, Parents, Grandparents, Aunts, Uncles, Cousins, friends.
Please pay special attention not only to what your kids watch on TV, in
movie theaters, on the Internet, and the music they listen to, but also be alert regarding the books they read.
Two particular books are, Conversations with God and Conversations with God for Teens,
written by Neale D. Walsch. They sound harmless enough by their titles alone. The books have been on the New York Times best sellers list for a number of weeks, and they make truth of the statement, "Don't judge a book by its cover or title."
The author purports to answer various questions asked by kids using the "voice of God". However, the "answers" that he gives are not Bible-based and go against the very infallible word of God. For instance (and I paraphrase),
when a girl asks the question "Why am I a lesbian?" His answer is that she was 'born that way' because of genetics (just as you were born right-handed, with brown eyes, etc.). Then he tells her to go out and "celebrate" her differences.
Another girls poses
the question "I am living with my boyfriend. My parents say that I should marry him because I am living in sin. Should I marry him?"
His reply is, "Who are you sinning against? Not me, because you have done nothing wrong."
Another question asks about God's forgiveness of sin. His reply "I do not forgive anyone because there is nothing to forgive. There is no such thing as right or wrong and that is what I have been trying to tell everyone, do not ju
dge people. People have chosen to judge one another and this is wrong, because the rule is "'judge not lest ye be judged."
Not only are these books the false doctrine of the devil, but in some instances quote (in error) the Word of God.
And the list goes on. These books (and others like it) are being sold to schoolchildren through (The Scholastic Book Club), and we need to be aware of what is being fed to our children.
The children of our nation are under attack. So I pray that you be sober and vigilant about teaching your children the Word of God, and guarding their exposure to worldly mediums, because our adversary, the devil, roams about as a roaring lion seeking whom he may devour (1 Peter 5:8). We know that lions usually hunt for the slowest, weakest and YOUNGEST of its prey.
Pass this on to every Believer you know. And, if you are in doubt, check out the
books yourself."
To:
Date: Sunday, February 8, 2009, 8:59 PM
BEWARE!!
If you have children or grandchildren, work with children at church, or you have neighborhood children whose parents you know, please take note of the information below and pass it along to others. Schools are distributing this
book to children through the Scholastic Book Club.
The name of the book is Conversations with God.. James Dobson talked about this book twice this week. It is devastating. Parents, churches and Christian schools need to be aware of it. Please pass this information on to
church/e-mail addresses, Parents, Grandparents, Aunts, Uncles, Cousins, friends.
Please pay special attention not only to what your kids watch on TV, in
movie theaters, on the Internet, and the music they listen to, but also be alert regarding the books they read.
Two particular books are, Conversations with God and Conversations with God for Teens,
written by Neale D. Walsch. They sound harmless enough by their titles alone. The books have been on the New York Times best sellers list for a number of weeks, and they make truth of the statement, "Don't judge a book by its cover or title."
The author purports to answer various questions asked by kids using the "voice of God". However, the "answers" that he gives are not Bible-based and go against the very infallible word of God. For instance (and I paraphrase),
when a girl asks the question "Why am I a lesbian?" His answer is that she was 'born that way' because of genetics (just as you were born right-handed, with brown eyes, etc.). Then he tells her to go out and "celebrate" her differences.
Another girls poses
the question "I am living with my boyfriend. My parents say that I should marry him because I am living in sin. Should I marry him?"
His reply is, "Who are you sinning against? Not me, because you have done nothing wrong."
Another question asks about God's forgiveness of sin. His reply "I do not forgive anyone because there is nothing to forgive. There is no such thing as right or wrong and that is what I have been trying to tell everyone, do not ju
dge people. People have chosen to judge one another and this is wrong, because the rule is "'judge not lest ye be judged."
Not only are these books the false doctrine of the devil, but in some instances quote (in error) the Word of God.
And the list goes on. These books (and others like it) are being sold to schoolchildren through (The Scholastic Book Club), and we need to be aware of what is being fed to our children.
The children of our nation are under attack. So I pray that you be sober and vigilant about teaching your children the Word of God, and guarding their exposure to worldly mediums, because our adversary, the devil, roams about as a roaring lion seeking whom he may devour (1 Peter 5:8). We know that lions usually hunt for the slowest, weakest and YOUNGEST of its prey.
Pass this on to every Believer you know. And, if you are in doubt, check out the
books yourself."
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Renewed patience
After my appt with one of my midwives (I have 4) I have a renewed patience for my 3rd baby's pregnancy! I was totally wanting it to come out and now I am okay. My midwife was very encouraging and answered all my questions about our VBAC after 2 Ceasareans. I think God has also increased my courage and given me complete peace for this decision.
I know VBACs sound dangerous and I know people who think we are crazy even for trying to have babies naturally. Oh it stretches you and your husband will never love you again. Not true. Oh Csections are better(that's like saying formula is better for your babies). Not true. Oh a woman recovers from Csections faster and better. So not true. Oh you will have ruptures doing VBAC. Not really true either. I have read statistics after statistics, testimonies after testimonies, talked to doctors and midwives, and Phill and I are convinced VBACs are safe.
I wanted to have Abigail naturally and went through labor for more than 20 hours without drugs until emergency surgery was unavoidable. I was so mad at Abigail for having a huge head and upset at the Lord. He made us and a woman's body a certain way to have babies. Did He make my birthing organs differently??? I was just plain mad because I wanted to have a testimony and was going to give Him all glory. Through that experience, He taught me that I just really wanted to be in control. He taught me that His ways and thoughts are always higher than mine. My pride was in the way. It just wasn't time. Abigail was BIG.
Isaac was another case, he just never wanted to come out at all. He wasn't big at all. Skinny little kid. Still is. He just didn't want out. Even during the CSection when the doctor tried to grab him, he wiggled up higher and higher to avoid coming into the world. We wanted a VBAC but no one in Miami was willing to do one. My midwife was. But the hospital wasn't. This time I was only mad at Isaac cuz he didn't sleep, eat, or poop well. His poop was always everywhere.
So, this time around, my midwives and even doctors in the hospital are on the same page. Wait for the baby to come. Be patient. That's it. I feel so encouraged and excited. Phill and I also printed out this maternity acupressure booklet online that will help with everything during labor. We are packing a suitcase, and we are ready to go for days in labor if need be. We are going to start a prayer chain and we are going to ask for intercessory prayers. We are so excited. When this baby comes out, we are going to hold it, cry, and give thanks to God. And I have learned, if VBAC is not successful, I will still give thanks because He is sovereign.
Isaiah 55
8 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,"
declares the LORD.
9 "As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
10 As the rain and the snow
come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
11 so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.
12 You will go out in joy
and be led forth in peace;
the mountains and hills
will burst into song before you,
and all the trees of the field
will clap their hands.
13 Instead of the thornbush will grow the pine tree,
and instead of briers the myrtle will grow.
This will be for the LORD's renown,
for an everlasting sign,
which will not be destroyed."
I know VBACs sound dangerous and I know people who think we are crazy even for trying to have babies naturally. Oh it stretches you and your husband will never love you again. Not true. Oh Csections are better(that's like saying formula is better for your babies). Not true. Oh a woman recovers from Csections faster and better. So not true. Oh you will have ruptures doing VBAC. Not really true either. I have read statistics after statistics, testimonies after testimonies, talked to doctors and midwives, and Phill and I are convinced VBACs are safe.
I wanted to have Abigail naturally and went through labor for more than 20 hours without drugs until emergency surgery was unavoidable. I was so mad at Abigail for having a huge head and upset at the Lord. He made us and a woman's body a certain way to have babies. Did He make my birthing organs differently??? I was just plain mad because I wanted to have a testimony and was going to give Him all glory. Through that experience, He taught me that I just really wanted to be in control. He taught me that His ways and thoughts are always higher than mine. My pride was in the way. It just wasn't time. Abigail was BIG.
Isaac was another case, he just never wanted to come out at all. He wasn't big at all. Skinny little kid. Still is. He just didn't want out. Even during the CSection when the doctor tried to grab him, he wiggled up higher and higher to avoid coming into the world. We wanted a VBAC but no one in Miami was willing to do one. My midwife was. But the hospital wasn't. This time I was only mad at Isaac cuz he didn't sleep, eat, or poop well. His poop was always everywhere.
So, this time around, my midwives and even doctors in the hospital are on the same page. Wait for the baby to come. Be patient. That's it. I feel so encouraged and excited. Phill and I also printed out this maternity acupressure booklet online that will help with everything during labor. We are packing a suitcase, and we are ready to go for days in labor if need be. We are going to start a prayer chain and we are going to ask for intercessory prayers. We are so excited. When this baby comes out, we are going to hold it, cry, and give thanks to God. And I have learned, if VBAC is not successful, I will still give thanks because He is sovereign.
Isaiah 55
8 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,"
declares the LORD.
9 "As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
10 As the rain and the snow
come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
11 so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.
12 You will go out in joy
and be led forth in peace;
the mountains and hills
will burst into song before you,
and all the trees of the field
will clap their hands.
13 Instead of the thornbush will grow the pine tree,
and instead of briers the myrtle will grow.
This will be for the LORD's renown,
for an everlasting sign,
which will not be destroyed."
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