Important video for all to watch - carseats

I pledge allegiance

Tomorrow morning, I am going to the department of homeland security to take the citizenship tests and interview. I guess it's time I become a citizen. My passport from Hong Kong has been expired for 2 years now and my resident alien status is expiring in 2011. I was on their website and saw that they need volunteers at the Naturalization ceremonies. LOL!! Like singers, choirs, keynote speakers, and color guards!!

https://egov.uscis.gov/crisgwi/go?action=offices.detail&office=DAL&OfficeLocator.office_type=LO&OfficeLocator.statecode=TX

No joke. I am gonna sign up to sing or give a keynote address or something. LOL.

On a more serious note, the Koo family is still struggling to become a discipled family. As a first generation Christian couple, Phill and I have so much to work on. We are in desperate need of God's grace on the children all the time. Every time I mess up or my husband mess up, I find myself going, "Oh Lord, help. Have mercy on us and our children." So, Phill and I are looking for an older and experienced Christian couple to take us under their wings so we can learn what a Christ centered family looks like. God give us an idea of the couple that you are going to provide for us. We need so much help and grace! Please give us a couple that will guide us, love us, and pray for us during these tough years of parenting. Provide for us what we need in order to become a more Christ centered family. Continue to transform Phill and I so that we may show more of You and less of us as we love, teach, disciple, and guide our children. AMEN.

In this present age

Yes 2009 is the year Obama tripled our national debt, legalized tax payers' money for abortion, and of course, attempting to socialize health care.

http://www.facebook.com/ext/share.php?sid=119316071620&h=tjcGM&u=V_FNu&ref=nf

http://www.youtube.com/my_subscriptions?pi=0&ps=20&sf=added&sa=0&sq=obamacare&dm=2&s=C0hFlT7rcz4&as=1#

http://fota.cdnetworks.net/pdfs/2009-07-30-healthcare-concerns-questions.pdf

Enough said.

Today was also the day we and the inlaws reconciled. I am supposed to have some kind of spiritual freedom now... Is it going to come slowly? Or is it going to hit me tomorrow or sth? I don't know..... But long story short, nothing from the past was brought up but new boundaries were set. I said I forgave her and asked her to forgive me. Our hands actually touched too... not just for like a second. It was kinda awkwardly long. Like 3 minutes. I don't know why I was clutching on it. In the middle of us talking, Phill decided to talk to another guy who was just walking through, asking him if there was coffee.......... ~.~

God continue to show me what to do and help me to obey You.

One of those days

I am just emotional today. The beginning of the month. I think I am PMS-ing. LOL.

Today, Abigail was coloring a dog and I asked her if the dog had a name. She thought for a moment and smiled saying, "Dog Koo." HAHAHAHAHA.......

I am mad. I am mad at God's people who are not broken hearted over the conditions of the nation. I am mad that lots of people still believe that politics has nothing to do with Christianity. Paul. Apostle Paul was always in the middle of politics!! He talked to officials, emperors, even the prison guards! Our war is not of the flesh but is in the spirit. Our political warfare is spiritual. So much at risk for our children and our children's children.

To be continued........................ gotta go cook.

Yawn

Lately Esther's been waking at wee hours to play. So... yawn....

I am sure we'll laugh at this one day, but it sure wasn't funny when I came downstairs from feeding Esther to finding Abigail and Isaac eating "beans" from a game. How did they not know that those were not real? When I saw Isaac kinda chewing on one, I asked him, hey buddy, don't eat those, they are not really beans, just toys. Abigail turned around with a shocked look and said, they are not real? I looked at her and said, of course not! It's a game! Did you eat them too??? She started to panic and said, yeah.... I ate 3!! I can't say I did not freak out. After 5 mins of screaming into an imaginary pillow, I calmly explained to her that the beans will probably just come out in her poop in a day or two. WOw....

Dad and Leo left today. I am glad they came. Leo had fun at joy zone on Sun and I think Dad's heart is more receptive to the gospel. I thought this visit was gonna be a little more stressful but it turned out fine. Now, the Lord has to work on my heart towards the inlaws who are coming in just 2 weeks. I will be sooooo grouchy for the next two weeks. I just don't know what to expect and not to expect. I am a little scared and a little reluctant still but I know God requires me to forgive. It is a long process and a conflict. I need to keep on forgiving.

God, keep transforming me and making me holy for Your glory. I pray my dad will seek You with his heart. I pray You will give him more opportunities to hear Your word and for him to seek Your face. Continue to use me for Your kingdom work. I pray wisdom over my children and my husband. I ask for more patience, love and encouraging words. And yes, help me to reconcile with my in laws. AMEn.

I love how Isaac says bana for banana

I know the Lord is with me. I posted yet another controversial article http://www.facebook.com/ext/share.php?sid=120021161816&h=w2m2Z&u=idwcV&ref=mf on facebook and comments came flooding. I guess my liberal friends don't like it when I do that. I knew it was a spiritual warfare so I prayed and prayed before I did anything else and my prayer was answered by a friend who posted 2 min before me. I didn't feel alone. I knew God is a miracle worker. I know He was able to show me and affirm me in my faith. He was so full of grace. God thank you for showing up. I can always count on You.

My heart was so grieved with my toddlers today. Abigail lied twice, disobeyed me about jumping across Esther, and ignored me when I asked her to come to me. Isaac... Oh Isaac, he spilled everything that was in his hands on purpose the whole day. He sprayed cleaners all over the video camera, he too ignored me when I asked him to come to me. He was a terror today. I was soooo discouraged. I asked people for prayers. I know this is an uphill thing. I have to fight for my kids' hearts and souls. I know that. God help. I know You are the only one able to do this. You are the One to call them to You. All I care is that they will know you and love you and obey you. Give us godly wisdom. Help us follow You. Help us capture their hearts for You. Give them a consuming passion to pursue You. Give me the patience and wisdom to deal with them when they fall short of You glory. Help me gently restore them into Your righteousness and Your love. I need Your help, affirmation and Your grace. AMEN.

Praise Him all heavenly saints proclaim

Praise the Lord. He has given us wisdom to challenge each other never to yell at each other or at the children. We have committed every morning to do so, and our relationships have gotten more intimate, loving, and peaceful. All we did was one thing. Completely eliminate any yelling. That was it. So simple. And it worked! I am sooo glad we listened and obeyed Him.

One Thing (PS27) Charlie Hall

Single minded, whole hearted, one thing I ask (x2)

That I may gaze upon Your beauty Oh Lord
That I may seek Your Holy Face
That I may know You in an intimate way
And follow after You all of my days


All of life comes down to just one thing
and that's to know You oh Jesus and make You known

There's nothing else I can add to Psalm 27. That's all I am. That's all I do. That's all what our family is all about. That's it. This is it. One thing. To know Him and to make Him known. AMen.

Our government

I love our country. I love that we have the freedom to speak up. I love that I can catch every single move that the administration is making. And I love that I can call our reps, email our president, and tell everyone about a law or bill that cannot be passed. I love that. I thank God for that freedom. I pray we will never give up our freedoms by submitting under the UN convention. And I pray that more and more people will exercise their rights and freedom while we still can.

More Americans Sickened at Thought of ObamaCare

The two Senate committees that have written health care "reform" plans are drawing closer to having their final products ready after the July Fourth recess--despite the fact that the Senate Finance Committee hasn't held a single hearing on its legislation. The bills may be moving quickly, but the drive to find support for them has not.

Conservatives are doing all they can to response to the unusually opaque situation take advantage of the situation on Capitol Hill. This morning, I joined a health care panel discussion on Capitol Hill, sponsored by Americans for Tax Reform and the Media Research Center. Sen. Jim DeMint (R-S.C.) participated, rolling out his Health Care Freedom Act, a plan that offers more choices, lower cost, and no tax hikes.

Meanwhile, the President's push took another big hit at the hands of the U.S. Chamber of Commerce, which sent an email blast to members urging them to oppose Sen. Ted Kennedy's (D-Mass.) "dangerous proposal." Apparently, even Sen. Chris Dodd (D-Conn.) was listening. During yesterday's Health, Education, Labor, and Pensions (HELP) mark-up, which Dodd chaired, the Connecticut Senator sounded like a Republican when he said that no one on the HELP Committee would vote for Kennedy's plan if it cost $2.3 trillion to cover 16 million people.

Dodd may have retreated on the HELP proposal, but his committee still made plenty of waves. During yesterday's hearing, Democrats defeated three amendments that should frighten every American. As the Health Care Freedom Coalition describes it, "One amendment would have required health care price disclosure and health care quality results (i.e., which doctors and hospitals are good). Two other amendments sought to ensure that the government could not ration health care..." The Democrats voted against each amendment, meaning that they support the rationing system.

As FRC has argued, rationing would mean limited treatments and delayed service for patients. Under the government-run plans in England and Canada, the countries' sick and elderly aren't getting the care they need. As a result, their system isn't improving lives but prematurely taking them. Here in the United States, Obama's rationing would mean that you and I could be denied basic care while our tax dollars are used to underwrite a mother choosing to end the life of her unborn child.

At least we can all keep our health care plans if we like them, right? Wrong. In this exchange between ABC's Jake Tapper and President Obama, it appears the White House is backing off of that promise too.

JAKE TAPPER: "...If the government is offering a cheaper health care plan, then lots of employers will want to have their employees covered by that cheaper plan... And then their employees would be signed up for this public plan, which would violate what you're promising the American people, that they will not have to change health care plans if they like the plan they have... [W]hat about keeping your promise to the American people..."

OBAMA: "...When I say if you have your plan and you like it, and your doctor has a plan--or you have a doctor and you like your doctor, that you don't have to change plans, what I'm saying is the government is not going to make you change plans under health reform."

That's quite a shift from last Monday, when the President swore, "...No one will take [your plan] away, no matter what." Under Obama, the private sector is dying the death of a thousand cuts, not one killing stroke.

Monday in a Harlem middle school, U.S. Ambassador to the United Nations Susan Rice told a group of 120 students that administration officials are actively discussing “when and how it might be possible to join” (that is, ratify) the UN Convention on the Rights of the Child (CRC). As before, she also communicated what a disgrace it is that the U.S. would stand with only Somalia against such a widely-accepted treaty.

This is the first direct public statement by the Obama administration that it will seek ratification of the UN CRC.

In my 30 years of political involvement, I have learned to recognize this as what is called a “trial balloon.” Like in World War I trench warfare, our opponents have “sent up a balloon” to see if it will draw fire. If things remain quiet, they will proceed with their plans to push for ratification of the CRC in the U.S. Senate.

To discourage them from doing so, we need to make sure that our voices are heard with unmistakable clarity. We must let the Obama administration know that we oppose this anti-family, anti-American treaty.

Here’s what we need you all to do:

1. Call the White House comments line at 202-456-1111. Tell them you heard the administration wants to ratify the CRC, and you strongly oppose this giving away of U.S. sovereignty to the UN. Also keep in mind that this treaty gives the government jurisdiction to override any decision made by any parent if the government thinks that a better decision can be made—even if there is no proof of any harm.

2. Call Ambassador Susan Rice’s office at the United Nations. Tell her that you want her to represent the United States to the world rather than trying to get the United States to go along with international law initiated by the UN. Her office number is 212-415-4000.

3. Contact your Senators and urge them to oppose ratification of this treaty. (Find your Senators’ contact information by typing your zip code into the box here.) Ask them also to defeat it once and for all by cosponsoring SJRes 16 – the Parental Rights Amendment.

God Help our President to make wise decisions. Help our countrymen to wake up and call on these erroneous bills and laws. Help me to raise our kids to love the truth and stand up for the truth. Help me to become the godly woman that You want. I want to be a Christ centered mom and wife. Help me to be an encouragement to my husband. Help me to be a source of light to my kids. AMEN.

Oh Lord transform me

I don't like my own attitude. I go through the day with 2 toddlers and a almost 3 mth old and it's hard to be kind all the time. I am trying so hard to be kind, patient, gentle, and encouraging. Sometimes, I succeed and other times, I don't. I also want to be more encouraging to my husband. I want to build others up, not one who tears down. I have prayed for the Lord to transform me. And I know He's not done with me yet. I just feel like I am messing my kids up because I am not completely transformed. I am so eager to be transformed by Him. I get so nervous sometimes thinking about it. I think I need to let go and sail with Him. I am always worried about what I am doing might hinder my husband and kids that my attitude gets even worse. Lord, carry my burden and let me take up Your yoke. Help me to let go and let You reign in me. I know I will never get there by my own efforts. Let me decrease so You can increase. God, help me forgive those who have wronged me. Help me believe that You can free me from unforgiveness. I pray that You will continue to work in me so others may see You in me and my family. Purify my every thought, action, and word. Give me a clean heart. Help me guide my children to You and capture their hearts for You. AMEN.

VOTE NO on hate crimes legislation

http://www.citizenlink.org/CLtopstories/A000010249.cfm

I do not agree with killing anything that can grow which includes fetuses. If you think about it, you can compare the fetus to two things. Flies and flowers. I hate flies. I kill flies all the time because they are annoying and dirty. Flowers, I love growing flowers, and I always urge my kids not to go into those flower beds so the flowers don't get trampled and die. To me, the fetus is a flower not a fly. I don't agree with abortion. Now in America, there are certain rights for certain people. Apparently if the majority of people agree that a certain type of murder is not murder anymore, then it's okay to murder. So, I'll give you that, and agree that it is okay to have free will and do whatever you want to do. The problem is, these people who like to kill also are encouraging others to kill and taking parents out of the picture.

Our parental rights are actively being threatened. The Universal court has an international law that gives children rights. If the US decides to go under this court, we are in trouble. If my child cries in public, the CPS can take my child away without answers or questions. So, apparently, if our kids want to have sex and have abortions, we don't have a right as parents to say no, especially if we had some mumbo jumbo religious reason. And of course, who is telling all these kids that it's okay to have "safe sex", the Comprehensive Sex Education program! It is a monopoly for activist organizations like Planned Parenthood.

There is one reason why I do not support govt schools. Activists. Gay activists, religious activists, anti life activists... you name it. They get to our next generation, they get the vote, and they know it.

I have blogged many times on tolerance. As Christians, we are the intolerant these days. Truth has become impressionistic. Oh, if it's true to you, then it's obviously true to you. What a bunch of bull. I remember watching a commercial on KERA where a bunch of blind folded kids stuck their hands into a huge bowl of spaghetti. Well, each kid had a uniquely ridiculous answer. Snakes, slimy worms, dragon hair,... I was truly disappointed that they never announced that there was only one true answer! SPAGHETTI! Those kids can think they are worms all they want, but the truth is that it was not worms! This society encourages its people to be blinded to the truth. So apparently, because of this, those who stand up for what is right and what is true (absolute truth) are wrong and intolerant. How sad and backwards.

Anyway, we know this is all about one thing. Warfare for the next generation's souls. God, You are sovereign. We love because You have first loved us. But those who don't love You will never know love. Forgive us as we fall short every day. Help us to persevere through trials, persecution, ridicule, and hatred. We need You more than ever and I ask You to set our children apart for You. Help us. Help us raise our kids to love You and Your word more than anything in this world. Help them to see You in us. Help us to live our lives through You and love them. We need You in our home. Continue to transform us so that we will become who You want us to be. Continue to use us and stretch our faith. Show us Your glory. AMEN.

Reporting live from Fort Worth Texas

Love our life here. Love our church here. Love what God's doing in our family. Love the people God has brought into our lives.

People have come up to me, teachers, friends, family, telling me that God has given Abigail, wisdom beyond her years. I never gave it much thought and thought people are just being nice until.... Yesterday, Phill was just doing a usual round to the homeless on Hemphill. Abigail asked if she could go. We told her she could and I reminded her to be friendly but be careful. When she heard that her friends were coming over, she asked if she could stay home. So I pulled her aside and I asked her one question, "Has God put the homeless in your heart?" She looked at me and nodded. I was taken by surprised. But I told her if God has put them in her heart, then she has to first obey God. That when she comes home, her friends will be here. But what God has put in her heart is important for her to do. Her friends came over, everyone got ready, and she left with her daddy. I was so proud of her. I almost cried when I told Phill afterwards about the conversation I had with her. I praise God for her and for giving her such wisdom. Lord, thank you for using Abigail and giving her the opportunity to love your people. Continue to teach her, mold her, and speak to her. Open her heart and eyes to You. Help us to guide her in her strengths and weaknesses. We pray that we will be equipped to bring her closer to You. Keep the devil away from her and keep her set apart for You. You know her heart and our hearts. Continue to work in us. AMEN.


Quote Benjamin Nockels.........
http://www.glocal.net/blog/comments/mission-community-fellowship/

"If we pursue friendship we can miss out on discipleship.
But if we pursue discipleship we will end up with the best kind of friendship.

If we pursue community we can miss out on a cause.
But if we pursue a cause we will end up with the best kind of community (cause-driven community).

If we pursue church we can miss out on Jesus.
But if we pursue Jesus we will end up with the best kind of church."

Finally, 15 days overdue baby #3

Esther Eden Koo
born Mar24 2pm 9lb7oz

We all expected this third baby to arrive in the end of February, and she kept us waiting and waiting!

Esther, literally means "star" (Esther, a young Hebrew girl formerly known as Hadassa, was chosen to be queen of Persia. She was a courageous young woman who confronted a wicked plan that was going to persecute her people even when she faced death); Eden is Hebrew for "delight" (Eden is mentioned once again in the last book of the Bible, Revelation chapter 2, as a place of where the tree of life still resides). We dedicated the Book of Phillipians to her. She is to live out a life described in Phillipians 2:14-16 as a star and be the place where others can find the "tree of Life" at.

Our first born, Abigail (the wise woman who became a wife of King David) is Hebrew and means "joy of her Abba Father"; Elizabeth (Mary's cousin, Jesus' Aunt once removed) is Greek for Hebrew name Elisheva "my God is my oath". We dedicated the book of Proverbs to her. She is to bring joy and glory to God in her life through wisdom, passion, and servanthood.

Our second born, Isaac (son of Abraham who calls God "his Fear") is Hebrew for "he will laugh"; James (half brother of Jesus) is English for Hebrew name Jacob "supplanter". We pray he will rejoice and bring glory to God's kingdom as he learns to become a leader. And of course we dedicated the book of James to him.

BABY!

YAY i am getting induced tomorrow and i am having regular contractions now! God is good.

I will not forget

I have been so frustrated and annoyed. The baby is supposed to come out earlier because it's our third one! I haven't been able to walk, sit, or sleep well for so long. I need to clean the house but can't. I need to spend quality time with my two toddlers but I feel like I haven't. I need to cook but I don't want to. I need to eat but I don't feel like it. I need the baby out, but it's not coming! I find myself getting mad. Getting mad at myself. My body. My baby. My God. We have been in prayer about this VBAC thing and this baby. What's going on??

But I keep reminding myself not to forget. I cannot forget. I will accept God's will in everything. I finished reading this ridiculously long book by Beth Moore yesterday, "To live is Christ". Paul met Jesus on the road to Damascus and I met Jesus on the road to death in my car 5 years ago. I remember the moment when I gave up. Jesus sat in the passenger seat right next to me in my white Ford Taurus. I was hurting, heart broken, purposeless in life, and I remember a supernatural peace came rushing when I cried out for Jesus. It drenched me, my body, physically in something that felt like grace and comfort. He was right across from me. I met Him in my car. I met Jesus face to face. He talked to me and He confronted me. I will never forget. My moment of salvation will always bring tears to my eyes.

Grace like rain. He became my Lord, my Savior, my everything. There's none other from then on. So Lord, I trust in You. Whatever it is You have planned, that's the way it will be. Just give me Your strength, courage, and mercy. God help me. God reveal in me my iniquities. Help me to overcome. You are all powerful and I know You are able to do all things. Bless my children and be with them. Help us to be parents who will always fall on their knees for Your help and mercy. Speak to us and we will listen. We pray Your sovereignty over all things in our lives. AMEN.

Grace Like Rain

Hallelujah, grace like rain falls down on me
Hallelujah, all my stains are washed away, washed away

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EU2h9dXPat0&feature=related

Baby is due?!

I am so sore and tired!!!! When will this baby come?

On the matter on killing babies

http://www.facebook.com/ext/share.php?sid=53913504270&h=BAJAw&u=BsgRu

I strongly oppose abortion. I think someone who is an advocate of abortion should just strongly consider staying out of the matter.

Funny Abigail quotes

I hope to be better at documenting the funny stuff my kids say soon....

"Mommy, I don't feel blue... I feel red"

"I know my shapes, but Isaac is not a shape. He's like a silly monkey."

"Love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your mind, with all your armpit!"

"I don't have socks... but I've got toes!"

"I am a pink dinosaur with red legs, and blue face, and I have green toes, and pink arms."

"Mommy, you look like a walrus"

Phill said "oh good job, your poop looks healthy and strong..." Abigail responded, "do my poopies have muscles?"

Abigail colors a picture with a dog in it. She comes to show it off, and I asked, "Does your dog have a name?" "Yeah, Dog Koo!!!" 8/2009

Strengths and weaknesses

It has been so difficult to see specific spiritual gifts in Abigail and Isaac. It is so easy to "approve" or "like" or "favor" what one kids does, so we figured we must be liking spiritual gifts we can recognize.

So, Isaac at age 16mth has developed amazing physical skills. He can jump, run, climb up and down anything. He also has amazing communication skills. Isaac has a loving heart too. But what we have been so warmed in our hearts by, is his God given ability to share. He is sinfully still selfish of course, but he loves to be generous. Isaac loves music. I think he would love to learn the drums. He is also in love with books. He cannot survive half a day without reading.

Abigail on the other hand has to be taught a lot more to be generous. Sharing does not make her joyful. But she has amazing coloring skills, attention span, and is already learning to read ( I still can't believe she knows all the phonetic sounds of the alphabets). She loves to organize. She is some kind of a perfectionist. Her spiritual gift is more administrative and hidden. She is very compassionate and knows how to feel for others even though others might not always come first. Abigail loves music too. I think she would love to lead worship one day like me. Abigail loves to talk about God, she asks lots of questions and knows many bible stories. But her understanding and ability to remember details are incredible. She understands that Jesus is the only One that can take her to heaven! She is currently, as of today, inquiring where death takes you. But she knows so much, I am astounded. She knows tons of bible verses, not because we systematically make her memorize it, I don't know if I agree to that, but because we use bible verses throughout the day! I will intentionally get a new verse once a month, but she is able to apply the bible verses to life and not just to her amazing sponge memory.

Recognizing their strengths and weaknesses is essential. We had to sit and think hard of these strengths and weaknesses. Phill and I both have shared how our parents looked down upon what we knew were strengths and nagged us crazy about our weaknesses. They also favored other siblings because their strengths were more "useful". By acknowledging the gifts that God has bestowed on our children, we will encourage their strengths and build their weaknesses in God's timing. Parenting has been so much work because we both have some horrible, deeply rooted, and twisted "skills" from the way we grew up. Only through God's grace and wisdom have we discovered these truths about ourselves and have been transforming ever since. Transformation will never cease since our children have different phases and are in different ages. We will never be able to do it on our own. I pray God will continue to raise us as a family who will glorify His name and Kingdom. His grace and wisdom be with us. Amen.

Warning on a book - FWD

"Subject: Beware of this book....Oprah is pushing it...
To:
Date: Sunday, February 8, 2009, 8:59 PM
BEWARE!!

If you have children or grandchildren, work with children at church, or you have neighborhood children whose parents you know, please take note of the information below and pass it along to others. Schools are distributing this
book to children through the Scholastic Book Club.

The name of the book is Conversations with God.. James Dobson talked about this book twice this week. It is devastating. Parents, churches and Christian schools need to be aware of it. Please pass this information on to
church/e-mail addresses, Parents, Grandparents, Aunts, Uncles, Cousins, friends.

Please pay special attention not only to what your kids watch on TV, in

movie theaters, on the Internet, and the music they listen to, but also be alert regarding the books they read.

Two particular books are, Conversations with God and Conversations with God for Teens,
written by Neale D. Walsch. They sound harmless enough by their titles alone. The books have been on the New York Times best sellers list for a number of weeks, and they make truth of the statement, "Don't judge a book by its cover or title."

The author purports to answer various questions asked by kids using the "voice of God". However, the "answers" that he gives are not Bible-based and go against the very infallible word of God. For instance (and I paraphrase),
when a girl asks the question "Why am I a lesbian?" His answer is that she was 'born that way' because of genetics (just as you were born right-handed, with brown eyes, etc.). Then he tells her to go out and "celebrate" her differences.

Another girls poses
the question "I am living with my boyfriend. My parents say that I should marry him because I am living in sin. Should I marry him?"

His reply is, "Who are you sinning against? Not me, because you have done nothing wrong."

Another question asks about God's forgiveness of sin. His reply "I do not forgive anyone because there is nothing to forgive. There is no such thing as right or wrong and that is what I have been trying to tell everyone, do not ju
dge people. People have chosen to judge one another and this is wrong, because the rule is "'judge not lest ye be judged."

Not only are these books the false doctrine of the devil, but in some instances quote (in error) the Word of God.

And the list goes on. These books (and others like it) are being sold to schoolchildren through (The Scholastic Book Club), and we need to be aware of what is being fed to our children.

The children of our nation are under attack. So I pray that you be sober and vigilant about teaching your children the Word of God, and guarding their exposure to worldly mediums, because our adversary, the devil, roams about as a roaring lion seeking whom he may devour (1 Peter 5:8). We know that lions usually hunt for the slowest, weakest and YOUNGEST of its prey.

Pass this on to every Believer you know. And, if you are in doubt, check out the
books yourself."

Renewed patience

After my appt with one of my midwives (I have 4) I have a renewed patience for my 3rd baby's pregnancy! I was totally wanting it to come out and now I am okay. My midwife was very encouraging and answered all my questions about our VBAC after 2 Ceasareans. I think God has also increased my courage and given me complete peace for this decision.

I know VBACs sound dangerous and I know people who think we are crazy even for trying to have babies naturally. Oh it stretches you and your husband will never love you again. Not true. Oh Csections are better(that's like saying formula is better for your babies). Not true. Oh a woman recovers from Csections faster and better. So not true. Oh you will have ruptures doing VBAC. Not really true either. I have read statistics after statistics, testimonies after testimonies, talked to doctors and midwives, and Phill and I are convinced VBACs are safe.

I wanted to have Abigail naturally and went through labor for more than 20 hours without drugs until emergency surgery was unavoidable. I was so mad at Abigail for having a huge head and upset at the Lord. He made us and a woman's body a certain way to have babies. Did He make my birthing organs differently??? I was just plain mad because I wanted to have a testimony and was going to give Him all glory. Through that experience, He taught me that I just really wanted to be in control. He taught me that His ways and thoughts are always higher than mine. My pride was in the way. It just wasn't time. Abigail was BIG.

Isaac was another case, he just never wanted to come out at all. He wasn't big at all. Skinny little kid. Still is. He just didn't want out. Even during the CSection when the doctor tried to grab him, he wiggled up higher and higher to avoid coming into the world. We wanted a VBAC but no one in Miami was willing to do one. My midwife was. But the hospital wasn't. This time I was only mad at Isaac cuz he didn't sleep, eat, or poop well. His poop was always everywhere.

So, this time around, my midwives and even doctors in the hospital are on the same page. Wait for the baby to come. Be patient. That's it. I feel so encouraged and excited. Phill and I also printed out this maternity acupressure booklet online that will help with everything during labor. We are packing a suitcase, and we are ready to go for days in labor if need be. We are going to start a prayer chain and we are going to ask for intercessory prayers. We are so excited. When this baby comes out, we are going to hold it, cry, and give thanks to God. And I have learned, if VBAC is not successful, I will still give thanks because He is sovereign.

Isaiah 55
8 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,"
declares the LORD.

9 "As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.

10 As the rain and the snow
come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,

11 so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.

12 You will go out in joy
and be led forth in peace;
the mountains and hills
will burst into song before you,
and all the trees of the field
will clap their hands.

13 Instead of the thornbush will grow the pine tree,
and instead of briers the myrtle will grow.
This will be for the LORD's renown,
for an everlasting sign,
which will not be destroyed."

Sideways

So other than having to cook sideways, wash dishes sideways, carry the kids sideways, hugging my husband sideways, and sleep sideways, I am also having to lead worship sideways. I have done that before while I was pregnant with Abigail but I was never this big! I reached 9 months and my bass could still be just kinda sideways. Now the guitar neck is a bit shorter so it's easier to play sideways, but the bass back is quite a bit longer. It's also heavier because it's electric. Anyway, I am, I am truly thankful that God has allowed me to lead worship again and I know this is my calling. I am just praying that this baby will come out already so I can stop being sideways. (for a year and a half till we have our fourth, that is)

God help me. I feel so heavy and tired. Give me patience and wisdom with the children. Use me in my iniquities. Create in me a new and clean heart. Never stop transforming me. Help me to respect and love my husband. Help me to hold my tongue when my sinful nature wants me to tear down. Help me build others up with Your words. Provide the fruits of the Spirit for all my actions and words, that I may live in You and Your promises. AMEN.

Bragging on Him

I wish I documented better how God has been providing for us all these years. On Christmas day, we spent lunch with the homeless on Hemphill rd. and since then, we've been eating with them every other Saturdays. The week right after Christmas, God provided this set of 1200 bucks worth of cast iron pots and pans from our neighbors for me to cook more and better! I didn't even really think about it till this morning when I cooked all 5 boxes of macaronis in one pot. I realized His provisions of details and non details. I gotta finish cooking the ground beef now.

Learning about myself

I've been reading so many books on how to be a better follower of Christ, wife, and mother since Abigail and Isaac started taking naps in the bunk bed. Don't get me wrong, I loved my naps with them. It's just, I needed personal time to grow and learn. I have discovered so many things about myself and why I am the way I am just from praying and reading these books. I thought I was just learning how to serve and love my kids and I ended up also learning how to be loved and love others. When I first surrendered to Christ, I had a love that overflowed my cup and I knew I was transformed and I was so close to Jesus because I was a baby spiritually. Love came so easy like how all children love. But as I matured and grew as a believer, went through valleys and mountains, it got harder and harder. I knew Jesus' power because I came to know His love when I surrendered. I will never stop seeking to love like He does.

"but to those whom God has called, both Jews and Greeks, Christ the power of God and the wisdom of God. For the foolishness of God is wiser than man's wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than man's strength." 1 Cor 1:24-25

God help me learn more and mature more in You so I may serve more and love more for You. I pray that my children and children's children will be blessed because of Your faithfulness. Take away their foolishness and replace with wisdom. Guide us so we may help them mature emotionally and spiritually. Humble us and continue to reveal the truth to us about ourselves. Help us to be transparent to each other and love each other unconditionally. AMEN

BABY KOO #3 ?!?!?!

We have had such a tough time with deciding our third baby's name! We still want meaningful Hebrew old testament first names and new testament middle names.

For a boy, we found these names:

1. Othniel, brother of Caleb who was the first judge of Israel
2. Nehemiah, the politician and royal cupbearer who initiated the rebuilding of the walls of Jerusalem and stood tall with God's favor
3. Jaazaniah, meant one whom God hears, but was a leader of corrupted priests
4. Azariah, Abednego's old name, meant YHWH has helped

For a girl, we have so much trouble finding names, therefore these are actually guys in the old testament:

1. Ezra - a writer who helped with the fortification of the walls of Jerusalem and brought repentance and reformation to the nation of Israel
2. Asriel - a son of Manasseh, son of Joseph

We have yet to come up with good middle names so we're going to decide on a first name before we match them up!

What about our first two children??

Our first born, Abigail (the wise woman who became a wife of King David) is Hebrew and means "joy of her Abba Father"; Elizabeth (Mary's cousin, Jesus' Aunt once removed) is Greek for Hebrew name Elisheva "my God is my oath". We dedicated the book of Proverbs to her. She is to bring joy and glory to God in her life through wisdom, passion, and servanthood.

Our second born, Isaac (son of Abraham who calls God "his Fear") is Hebrew for "he will laugh"; James (half brother of Jesus) is English for Hebrew name Jacob "supplanter". We pray he will rejoice and bring glory to God's kingdom as he learns to become a leader. And of course we dedicated the book of James to him.

We are so excited about our third baby! Its official due date is on the 13th March and I really have no idea if it's a boy or a girl! It sometimes reminds me of how Abigail moved in my tummy, and sometimes reminds me of Isaac, but a lot of times it's just different! Pray that this baby will arrive preferably early and safely! =)

Love, the almost 5 Koo's

How about that

God has been sending me not just one dream but a series of dreams this time. Usually dreams of the same issue would come and go in a course of a month if I needed more than one, but apparently I needed these dreams to be within a week.

We have been praying for God to reveal our family's generational sins and for Him to help us overcome them before we pass them on to our children. Our generational sins are overwhelming and shameful. We pray God will help us overcome them and He has been gracious to reveal them and help us deal with them.

Our problems with in laws, God has revealed is not a sin but a trigger to something bigger. Marital problems. In law problems have been a passed down trigger and insecurity by generations. Every time I deal with fear or insecurity triggered by in law problems, there's dissension, division, and distrust between my hubby and I. It is something that the enemy uses to cause our families to disintegrate. In other words, if I want a wholesome marriage, we need to resolve in-law conflicts. There are tons of other generational sins like lust, malice, dishonesty, alcoholism, greed and gluttony etc. With God in this I believe we will overcome.

So with FOCA coming up on the 21-22 Jan, I still don't get it. This law will FORCE ALL hospitals to perform abortion! People should get their choices, yes, but what about these people who chose to open Catholic, Methodist, Christian hospitals and work in them because that's what they believe in?!?!?!? Shouldn't they get to choose? There's so many other clinics, hospitals, doctors, who would perform abortions for blood money! Why go to a place and why force a place with religious convictions to perform the murder of babies?!?! That's just so wrong. AND, don't even get me started with the so called "fairness doctrine". This doctrine will again FORCE radio and TV stations with religious and conservative convictions to broadcast the equal amount of liberal political messages!!! So if we broadcast Focus on the family for one hour, we will have to hear Nancy Pelosi preach for another hour or something! This is just ridiculous. That's why we have over thousands of channels to choose from!! So we can hear and watch what we CHOOSE to hear and watch. That's like saying if we broadcast Veggietales in English for one hour, we'd have to broadcast Veggietales in Spanish for the next hour!!!!! ARGH!!!! Then, there's the ENDA. A cunning tool to get everyone who stands by their beliefs fired, sued, and jailed.

God I am so perplexed at the world. I am homesick! I'd rather be "absent in the body and present with the Lord." Let us see some light in the darkness. God, let Your will be done. No matter what happens, You are still sovereign and in control. Give us patience and perseverance. Help us raise up a generation who will overcome and be courageous. Let our children and our children's chidlren be set apart and give them Your passion for Your people. Guide me to become the wise woman that You want me to be. I continue to ask for mentors, other wise women, and accountability partners in my life that You will speak through and teach me. Humble me and strengthen me. Help me love through Your Son. Help me see through Your eyes. AMEN.

More Info:
FOCA
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Freedom_of_Choice_Act
Fairness Doctrine
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fairness_doctrine
ENDA
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Employment_Non-Discrimination_Act