One of dem "Paul"s

We all know that Paul was one of the baddest Jews around town. He wore the laws around him, kept the Shabbat holy, ate kosher food, was circumcised, and was most importantly persecuting anyone who claimed Jesus to be the Son of God. Paul beat them, burned them, hanged them, spat at them, scorned at them.

Then, BAM, he was changed. He became one of "them" followers of Christ because of an encounter on the road to Damascus. Paul was instantly transformed into a passionate martyr who gave his life to see others saved. Apparently, Paul was never a Peter or a John.

My point is, there's lots of people who were saved like a Peter or a John, and then there are people who were saved like a Paul. Of course, all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God.

But like my husband, he is definitely a Peter. He accepted Christ when he was 6, had great friends and parents of his friends who held him accountable. And yes, a little rebellion and little mistakes here and there, but he stood up and followed Jesus after a long struggle.

Now, me, I am definitely one of dem Pauls. I grew up bowing before dead relatives, coughing at incense, laughing at Bible stories and intelligent design, and a terrible brat who would sell her life for security and love.

Then, BAM, I met Jesus, and I knew He was the One. I left everyone and everything behind. Even though I had only been a follower since 2003, my knowledge and faith was blasting all over the place. My husband thought I had been a Christian for a decade when he met me, which was 3 months into my Christian walk.

I had to go through all of those bad tough times for Jesus to get to me and I wish some things didn't have to happen. But I am glad I am one of dem Pauls, because my life is a miracle. Christ is glorified in me because He was the One who gave me a life that is meaningful, convicted, hard but filled with joy. My life was turned around and transformed in a way that Peters, Johns, families and friends will never fully understand. Jesus is as real as a lemon. He is never to be sold out on or ignored.

God I do pray, that if You allowed me to start out as one of dem Pauls, that You will also give me strength, perseverance, passion, determination and the grace to finish well as one of dem Pauls. Sustain me and walk with me. All glory to You. AMEN.

KING OF GLORY THIRD DAY

Who is this King of Glory that pursues me with his love

And haunts me with each hearing of His softly spoken words

My conscience, a reminder of forgiveness that I need

Who is this King of Glory who offers it to me

Who is this King of angels, O blessed Prince of Peace

Revealing things of Heaven and all its mysteries

My spirit's ever longing for His grace in which to stand

Who's this King of glory, Son of God and son of man

His name is Jesus, precious Jesus

The Lord Almighty, the King of my heart

The King of glory

Who is this King of Glory with strength and majesty

And wisdom beyond measure, the gracious King of kings

The Lord of Earth and Heaven, the Creator of all things

Who is this King of Glory, He's everything to me
The Lord of Earth and Heaven, the Creator of all things

He is the King of glory, He's everything to me

Wowzer

I thought I should at least blog once in August. Tonight, I led worship at Metochai! Kathy and I had fun. This calling to lead worship with music is getting clearer and clearer as we speak and still I doubt. I doubt my abilities mostly, and my availability, as in "You want me to do all this while we have 3 toddlers?"

When we left Miami, I had 3 friends. Becca, Phill and Jesus. I think I had given up trying to find people with my odd passions, hobbies and interests. God has shown me that I need to depend on only Him and what it is like to be an outcast. Most of my so called friends have deserted me and plainly rejected me. I have been called lots of things, and I am particularly proud about the one time I was called "narrow-minded" by a "good friend".

There is hope I believe. I think there might be some oddballs like me in Metochai afterall. I can't wait to know these sisters in Christ God have in store for me. Lord, you know I need healthy relationships. I pray for a mentor, and accountability partners; people who want to grow in Christ on their own and with me. You have the future in Your hands. I ask that You will be with our children and help them understand who You are. Help us to be the parents who will reflect Your image to them. Give me patience, wakefulness, and gentleness. I want You to come back not to deliver us from the mess here on earth but to show Your faithfulness that every knee shall bow and every tongue confess that You are Lord. AMEN.

I am a new creation in Christ

Family, relatives, and old aquaintances just have a hard time understanding who I am and the concept that I am not the same. I also have a hard time reconnecting to the past and people from the past. I hated living in Hong Kong, I hated living in Florida, I hated the fact that my friends were not my friends, and that my family wasn't my family. After accepting Jesus as the only King in my life, I found my self worth in Him. If I wasn't worth anything, He would not have died for my sins. I now have true friends with deep relationships, a family who loves God and is geared for the Kingdom, and I know I am a citizen of heaven, my home is in heaven with Him. It's time to repost an old post......

Saturday, March 1, 2008

Standing alone

Twenty something years of my life past by me when I was all right with being inconsiderate, profane, selfish, immoral... a liar, a thief, an adulteress, a murderer... I, am a woman with a shameful, guilty, godless past. I was unstable, irresponsible, impulsive, and depressed. I did things to make myself feel happy during the day, yet curled up with pain in my heart at night. I attempted to seek peace through self-help books, music, shopping, and even the most despised of all, religion. I was desperate. I was in agony. My soul was empty. Life was meaningless.

But isn't it? We work and we slave for the things that we want and need. And money, the very thing we work for, owns us. Yet, at the end of life, who will take their bank accounts to their graves? Who will be full from the meals they have consumed? Who, will we be accountable to? Even my parents have disciplined me when I was a child. Teachers have graded my papers and given me F's.

Am I to fail at what I am given, even though I did not ask for it? Who will cherish my life if I did not? Who will love me when I cannot even find myself worthy? And at what price...?

For God did NOT send His Son into the world, to CONDEMN the world, but to SAVE the world through Him.

I have experienced a love that I still do not understand. A love so crazy. A love so sacrificial. My life was NOT saved by a church. My life was NOT saved by a religion. My life was precious to my Creator. Jesus came to me in my car when I cried out to Him. He sat beside me as I sobbed. He took my burden and carried my transgressions. Jesus, my God, saved me. And He was my price on the cross.

So is it OK to admit that I would die for Him? That I will speak the Truth in love to everyone I cross roads with? Relatives have left me, friends have isolated me, people have called me narrow minded, and I have been made anew! To stand alone is to have the will to die for Jesus as He has died for me. To stand alone is to be persecuted verbally, physically and emotionally, yet still singing to praise Him.

I will stand alone in Christ, and in Him alone will I glory.

KING Tree63

We have heard the thunder
We have seen the storm
Echoes of your kingdom coming
Rumors of our home
Where one day we will stand before you Lord
Our altogether beautiful reward

CHORUS:
And we will give you glory bring you honor
King above all kings
You deserve our everything
We will lift our voices with your praises
Jesus you are our king

Though now we walk in darkness
Though now we see in part
Right now we're warmed by the burning flames
Of the fire in our hearts
You've promised you would lead us to your throne
Where we will worship you and you alone

I had to comment on this website

http://albawaba.com/en/news/223157

I wrote: "No matter what his (Obama) beliefs are, he is extremely liberal. Too liberal to be Jewish, Christian, or Muslim. He is pro-abortion, anti traditional marriage, wants to raise taxes, and has a liberal wife who eggs him on. When he becomes president he will not only demoralize the country, but the people of the country and of other nations!"

I am gonna be bloated

We are expecting baby #3!! And I am already getting nauseous when I smell fish.

One day...

http://www.citizenlink.org/CLBriefs/A000007787.cfm

Man Sues Bible Publishers over Verses on Homosexuality

A Michigan man is suing Zondervan Publishing and Thomas Nelson Publishing, claiming biblical references to homosexuality as a sin violate his constitutional rights and have caused him emotional pain and mental instability.

Bradley LaShawn Fowler, 39, is seeking $60 million from Zondervan and $10 million from Thomas Nelson, The Grand Rapids (Mich.) Press reported. He is representing himself in both claims.

Fowler claims the Bible has made him an outcast and contributed to physical discomfort and periods of "demoralization, chaos and bewilderment."

"As frivolous as this case may sound, it's an indicator of where the homosexual agenda is headed," said Bruce Hausknecht, judicial analyst for Focus on the Family Action. "Ten years from now, this type of case won't be humorous at all; we'll see organizations like the ACLU dedicating resources to them because such 'language' will no longer be considered protected speech.

"Sweden, Canada and the U.K. are already prosecuting religious speech as 'hate' speech, as it relates to the biblical view of homosexuality."

One day, I will be arrested for proclaming the gospel and the diety of Christ. One day, I will be called a 'hater' even though I have the love of Christ. One day, the Bible will be illegal and true worshipers of Jesus will be underground.

Why would this man sue Bible publishers? That's like suing the authors and publishers of any books that went against any Biblical values and offended people like me who love the Lord and His laws. It is not like someone sat this man down and forced the Bible in front of him and made him read it day and night until he believed it. This is so sad. I am just disgusted by the backwardness of this world. God deliver us from evil.

One day, Jesus will be back to reign the heavens and the earth. One day, on earth, above the earth and under the earth, every knee shall bow and tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord. God, my prayer is that You show me what Your will for me is. I still can't quite put it all together. Music, kids, the deaf, and politics? You have put in my heart these passions but they confuse me and I feel not just unworthy but incompetent! Hear my plea and give me clear visions of my calling.

"Real Christians Don't Do Politics"

That's like when people say to me, "Jesus is just a crutch to your hopelessness". They are right! He is a crutch. Without Him I am hopeless. He is my only hope, refuge, strength, deliverance, Savior, and God.

Real Christians don't do politics. We don't. We just stand up for the truth. And politicians and general public just hate it, especially when you claim that the truth is the Word of God, Jesus Christ, the Trinity, and Christ's Resurrection. The Devil has His grand scheme (Eph 6:11) just as we have Jesus' great commission (Matt 28:16-20).

According to Ephesians 6, we are to take hits from all sides. 10Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power.

We need to recognize this:
1. That the Devil has a scheme to take over the powers in this world, meaning politicians, rich billionaires, and nuclear families. 11Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes.

2. Being active, signing petitions, voting, supporting conservatives, and calling governors do not mean you are being a politician doing politics. 12For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.

3. We are to keep ourselves updated spiritually, mentally and physically, and know what is going on in our nation so we don't have to find out from the media who distorts everything with an agenda. We are not to create chaos, we are to stand our ground and pass on a legacy to our next generation. 13Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.

4. Stand firm then, "Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of Me." Matthew 5:11 We are standing up for a Savior who is real and coming back and will be held accountable for the kind of "truth" we stand up for.14Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place,

5. And be open to sharing the Truth with people who cross our paths. Like abortion is wrong because life is created by God in the womb. Funny thing is, people don't like stepping on grass and put signs for others to preserve their lawn. What about a fetus that is eating, drinking, peeing, pooping, moving, and growing into a human being? 15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace.

6. We are to know our history, constitution laws, senators, reps, governors, and organizations that are fighting everyday for our Christian beliefs in the government. Being a part of a petition, lobbying, email, reading up on stuff etc is a legacy, responsibility and effort to win this tug o war with Satan. 16In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one.

7. People are going to tell us that real Christians don't do politics. Truth is, it is about our future generations falling into our Enemy's hands. It is not about silly agendas, it is about a Kingdom and its children. 17Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

8. We do not lose hope or strength because He is our fortress and our goal. Choose to be a Kingdom warrior, and know our Enemy. He will be vanquished, and Jesus will be Lord. We have to persevere and pray with stubborness. 18And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.

9. It is God who will make this nation. It is God who will make the mystery of the gospel known. It is God who will be faithful with our future generations when we are faithful to the Truth. I will be fearless, I will know Him in my sufferings. So, use me, God. 19Pray also for me, that whenever I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel,

10. Are we up to this calling? 1 Thess 2:11-13 Are we reading His Word, spending time with Him, passionately pursuing what He wants us to do, and raising our next generation to love Him with their lives? We are to live worthy of His calling! 20 for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should.

Lord, be my shepherd. I will fight for You and my future generations. Deliver our future generations and help us instill Your passion for Your people and Your nations in them. Teach us to raise them in Your path. AMEN.

Far from the world

I have not been on the internet for like 2 weeks. I feel out of touch already. All the things that have happened in court rooms and state capitols pass me by without mercy! Anyway, just a quick note, I reading the oath to become an American, and I had to think about it very seriously. I don't think I agree 100% with the government and how everything works. I wouldn't overthrow it but I'd want to change it. I think the system of finding suitable leaders for our mayors, senators, reps, and president is out of date. I believe people who want to be a part of our gov't need to take few diverse classes of history and politics, take all kinds of tests, proven to be dilligent and moral, and also have military experience. I believe it should be harder. Rather than just raise billions of dollars, owing activisits and millionaires lots of favors, having good looks and presentation, and being a good talker. God, make this nation Your own. Rise up godly leaders and raise up the future generations to love You and serve You. I love you. Use me.

"Persecution will be the norm"

Over the past few months, I have been reading up and sending petitions about ENDA. This bill cannot happen. This bill is a wolf dressed in sheep skin.

"Employment non discrimination act" sounds like a really nice... no discrimination, everybody equal kinda bill. It's not. It's an overboard, we're suing you if you don't like us, you can't fire me, you have to hire me, i don't care about what you believe in... kinda bill.

Basically, it's a bill that allows a homosexual to sue an organization, company, person, anything anybody, once they feel offended. They can totally make stuff up to get you in trouble if they really want to get rid of you. You'd have to tiptoe around these people, or act like you like them, or act like you agree with them, and act like you're okay with them acting weird around you or hit on you.

Even faith based organizations will be forced to hire anyone who openly offends their faith, beliefs and what they are founded on.

What about everyone else who is offended by these people who act like they don't care? I am offended when they openly act gay in front of me. I am offended when they teach my future generations it's okay to be like them. I am offended when they have agendas in schools. I am offended by the way they act like they are offended that we are offended. I love the gay people because they are still people. I have family and friends who are gay. But I certainly do not condone their behaviors and I am honest with them about it.

Am I going to be scorned by my beliefs? You bet. Am I going to be hated and gossiped about because of my faith? YES. I am even going to be persecuted, sued, spat on, you name it because of what I believe in. But I have a God who went through all that, and a God that has passed on His wisdom to us. He has been clear about His laws and His love. His choice to redeem and deliver us from our sins and indulgence. I have no doubt one day I will die for Him as He has died for me. I am ready to be martyred for what and who I believe in because I know that Jesus is real and that His faithfulness will be honored. Christ will be glorified in the end. Every knee shall bow, and every tongue will confess that Jesus Christ is Lord. Under the earth, on the earth, and in heaven. Everyone will know the truth one day whether we like it or not.

God, give us the strength, perseverance, and steadfastness to fulfill Your purposes for us. Use us for Your glory. May Your kingdom come and will be done. Deliver us from the evil and persecution by the people around us who hate us because they hate You first. You are with us till the end. May You be glorified.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Employment_Non-Discrimination_Act

Relationships

I finally know what God has been trying to do for the past 3 years!!!! He's been trying to heal my insecurities in relationships. Since I came back from missions, I have been dealing with tons of relationships. From my dad to my ex, friends to family. I need closure and healing. God continue You work in me and give me courage. Be with me as I step into the lion's den. I want my faith to be completed through fire and suffering. Test me, teach me, use me. Please open and close doors for me. Reveal Yourself to my dad and sister. Guide and lift up my older sister as she shines before her family as You have for us. Deliver us and protect us as we advance for Your kingdom.

A letter to John McCain, Candidate for US President

Thank you for your work as a Senator and upstanding candidate for US President. When California demonstrated that marriage can be redefined by any judge at any time, I was shocked at the inactivity and attitude of apathy from every citizen and government official in this country.

We should not the bystanders of appparent judicial tyranny. Our American democracy should not be mocked by special interest activisits and their supporters.

Please support American families by backing the federal Marriage Protection Amendment.

Lord have mercy

Dr. James Dobson, founder and chairman of Focus on the Family, issued this statement late today after Colorado Gov. Bill Ritter signed SB 200:

“Who would have believed that the Colorado state Legislature and its governor would have made it fully legal for men to enter and use women’s restrooms and locker-room facilities without notice or explanation?

“Henceforth, every woman and little girl will have to fear that a predator, bisexual, cross-dresser or even a homosexual or heterosexual male might walk in and relieve himself in their presence. The legislation lists every conceivable type of organization to which this law applies, including restaurants, bathhouses, massage parlors, mortuaries, theaters and ‘public facilities of any kind.’ Those who would attempt to protect females from this intrusion are subject to a fine of up to $5,000 and up to one year behind bars.

“This is your government in action. It represents a payback to Tim Gill and two other billionaires who have essentially ‘bought’ state legislators with enormous campaign contributions. Coloradans deserve better!

“And by the way, because of the way this bill is written, it is not subject to the initiative process. There is no recourse.”

http://www.citizenlink.org/content/A000007522.cfm

I wrote to the governor of Colorado

Dear Governor Ritter,

I personally thank you for all you have done and sacrifices made as the governor of Colorado. Colorado is a beautiful state whose people have high moral standards and strong families.

However, I was deeply saddened and disappointed when I read about the SB-200. I was even surprised that an upstanding governor like yourself would consider signing this bill to be passed.

I understand this is an anti-discrimination bill that encourages people not to be biased. But to force ladies to let men into their bathrooms or vice versa, and letting our children's privacy be violated in such a way is unheard of! My children and I will never be safe in a public bathroom ever again.

Please hear my plea as a concerned citizen and worried mother. Do not sign this bill. Do not become the one to be held accountable for the disasters and moral decay that will result from this bill.

Thank you for your time.

Sincerely,
Joanna Koo


This is what I think. I am not interested in politics or saving the planet. I am interested in only one thing, and that is standing for what I believe in as a passionate follower of Jesus Christ. A lot of conservative Christians, evangelicals, and preachers are not doing anything because "it's politics", or they've been brainwashed already by liberals to "be tolerant", and therefore to be stepped upon. The truth is, we are being persecuted!

Well, I am not talking about physical persecution of the Christians. Oh God, no. The nation will be in big trouble for killing us. We are now under spiritual persecution! The evil forces, Satan and its dominion, have worked hard to get to us and our children. Every single Christian should start realizing that this is a huge spiritual warfare! Little by little, our rights as spiritual guides to our children are being mocked, ridiculed and taken away. People either don't know or they don't know what to do because it's totally undercover and too huge for any one of us to handle.

God Almighty, let the governor hear my plea for my family and my nation. Have mercy on Your nation and deliver Your people. Amen.

I am furious at people who support this eroneous bill

SB 200 - "Expansion of Discrimination Prohibitions" bill - PASSED SENATE & HOUSE

Introduced by Sen. Jennifer Veiga and Rep. Joel Judd, SB 08-200 will expand language prohibiting discrimination on the basis of sexual orientation, including transgender status, in housing practices, public accommodation, eligibility for jury service, availability of family planning services, as well as many other areas.

This is a chance to update the current laws in order to have consistency and predictability in the way Colorado's anti-discrimination laws are applied. It will also add sex, marital status, disability, age, national origin, ancestry and religion as needed.

We must be sure to have protections not only against blatant acts of discrimination that occur, but also against the subtle discrimination that remains so pervasive!

And in turn, these people are going to be invasive and unreasonable! How will my children ever be safe in a public bathroom or changing room by themselves? I am so mad and terrified for my children and my children's children. I can only cry out to my sovereign God at this time. Lord, I am furious. Calm my soul and give me peace. Show Your glory in this country. Deliver us from this evil age! Save my children and my children's children from this sinful world and ridiculous acts of evil. Lord help me help them. What can I do? What can I do but to lean on You and ask You to shine? Please give me strength. Jesus, help me and my future generations be salt and light unto this world. Do not let any of my future generations to get lost in the world! God, be with my family. Deliver us! Help us!!! God I pray for the people who are going to be affected by this in Colorado. Let it be evidential that this bill will only deteriorate the state and demoralize children. Let it prove that this bill is harmful to everyone and is terribly invasive. God hold everyone who is involved in this accountable and deliver the ones who are set apart for You. Protect Your children and shield them from the Evil One. God let Yourself be known in all nations. I ask all this in Your Son's holy name. Amen.

I hope in the Lord

ISAIAH

Chapter40:
28 Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.

29 He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.

30 Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;

31 but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

Perseverance

I am praying for perseverance a lot these days because I feel like quitting. Sometimes I feel that way when there's no sign of improvement or movement in something I do. Today, I am specifically talking about worship leading. God, before I start thinking about all the negative things about it, please remind me why I am doing it and how I am doing it. Work through me and talk to me about it. Help me and use me. Push me and stretch me. Expand my territory and my gifts. Please don't let me quit. Amen.

Every man - Casting Crowns

I'm the man with all I've ever wanted
All the toys and playing games
I am the one who pours your coffee, corner booth each Saturday
I am your daughter's favorite teacher
I am the leader of the band
I sit behind you in the bleachers
I am every man

I'm the coach of every winning team and still a loser in my mind
I am the soldier in the airport facing giants one more time
I am the woman shamed and haunted by the cry of unborn life
I'm every broken man, nervous child, lonely wife

Is there hope for every man
A solid place where we can stand
In this dry and weary land
Is there hope for every man
Is there love that never dies
Is there peace in troubled times
Someone help me understand
Is there hope for every man

Seems there's just so many roads to travel, it's hard to tell where they will lead
My life is scarred and my dreams unraveled
Now I'm scared to take the leap
If I could find someone to follow who knows my pain and feels the weight
The uncertainty of my tomorrow, the guilt and pain of yesterday

There is hope for every man
A solid place where we can stand
In this dry and weary land
There is hope for every man
There is Love that never dies
There is peace in troubled times
Will we help them understand?
Jesus is hope for every man

Schemes of darkness

Lord, help Your people to stand firm on Your moral standards.

Send us with fire to go love the world

Lord Almighty, I lift California and its people to You tonight. I feel helpless sometimes when I read about the world. When are You going to deliver Your people? When is Your glory to come? What is going on in this world? Jesus, You are the only One who can do anything about these outrages upside down beliefs. Empower Your people to win over the this culture and nation. God, forgive us of our sins. Let us be a nation of righteousness and godliness. Tell me what I can do!! Let me do something other than petitions and emails!

HERE I AM, SEND ME!

California Marriage Law: 4,618,673 to Four

After a brief period of judicial restraint, California voters watched in horror this afternoon as judicial activism returned with a vengeance in one of the most egregious rulings in American jurisprudence. It took just four activist judges to overturn the historical definition of marriage, not to mention the vote of more than four and a half million Californians, as the state supreme court issued a much-anticipated ruling on the question of same-sex "marriage." By a 4-3 margin, the justices struck down a law, adopted by 61 percent of voters in 2000, which defined marriage as the union of one man and one woman. By imposing same-sex "marriage" on voters, the California Supreme Court knowingly usurped the right of the people to effect change in public policy. This outcome is even more troubling than Massachusetts', in that California voters had already won the right to put a marriage protection amendment on the ballot in November. If the court cared at all about the democratic process, it would have stayed its decision until the people's voice was heard on the November amendment. Instead, these justices trampled on the legislature and created same-sex marriage by judicial fiat. This is nothing more than a judicial shotgun wedding that forces a redefinition of marriage on the people of California and potentially the rest of the nation. We trust that the voters of California will act in November to correct this exercise in judicial activism and to permanently enshrine the traditional definition of marriage in the state constitution. Clearly, this decision highlights the need for a federal amendment defining marriage in the U.S. Constitution. Only then will this campaign to shatter the family's foundation be ended once and for all.


The California Supreme Court ruled today that a law defining marriage as the union between one man and one woman is “unconstitutional,” allowing same-sex couples to marry within the next 30 days. The ruling struck down Proposition 22, a voter-approved statute protecting traditional marriage.

“The justices have undermined and endangered the basic building block of society, which has been honored and preserved in every nation on earth through most of human history."

— Dr. James Dobson, founder and chairman of Focus on the Family, on Thursday's decision by the California Supreme Court to redefine marriage 5/15/08

Weird weekend

My husband is traveling to Miami this weekend so I am alone with my two babies. It feels weird to be alone. I mean I am not really alone cuz I got kids. But I guess adult wise, I am out numbered. I am trying to do more stuff so it doesn't seem like he's gone.

I will not be silenced!

Lord, You are a sovereign God who will have mercy on Your people. Save us and our future generations from evil. Teach me to be proactive and to instill this passion in our children. I pray for wisdom and mentorship from someone who has this interest and passion. Guide me to the right resources and people so I may carry out what You want for me to do. Heal our nations and the hearts of people. Give me strength and perseverance. Lord, bring justice to Your name and Your people. Bring righteousness into our nation and raise up more of us who will not be silenced because of persecution and ridicules. Send me a vision. Talk to me. Use me and continue to transform my heart. You have promised to deliver Your people. Please show me Your glory.

http://www.cnn.com/video/#/video/bestoftv/2008/05/13/gb.dobson.family.matters.cnn

http://www.citizenlink.org/videofeatures/A000007419.cfm

http://www.citizenlink.org/CLNews/A000007424.cfm

http://www.alliancedefensefund.org/issues/religiousfreedom/churchandstate.aspx?cid=4485

http://www.alliancedefensefund.org/issues/religiousfreedom/churchandstate.aspx?cid=4491

Made to love Toby Mac

The dream is fading, now I'm staring at the door
I know its over cause my feet have hit the cold floor
Check my reflection, I ain't feelin what I see
It's no mystery
Whatever happened to a passion I could live for
What became of the flame that made me feel more
And when did I forget that...

I was made to love you
I was made to find you
I was made just for you
Made to adore you
I was made to love
And be loved by you
You were here before me
You were waiting on me
And you said you'd keep me
Never would you leave me I was made to love
and be loved by you

The dream's alive with my eyes opened wide
Back in the ring you've got me swinging for the grand prize
I feel the haters spittin vapors on my dreams
But I still believe
I'm reachin out, reachin up, reachin over
I feel a breeze cover me called Jehovah
And daddy I'm on my way
Cause I was made to love...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V2NDIq82H5s&feature=related

This was AWESOME!

Dear Ms. Bunnell,

I was compelled to email you about these articles I
read and the video I watched. It certainly did not
take long for me to see that these students had no
respect for any of their peers or authorities at your
university. Will you and your University be mocked and
ridiculed by these acts of vandalism? Please consider
taking action swiftly.

Sincerely,

Joanna Koo

http://www.lifenews.com/state3207.html
http://www.lifenews.com/state3214.html?CFID=362585&CFTOKEN=76a3a035b5017e4a-175D2C3B-A48C-F285-8996D0A7EEACEE28
http://www.washingtontimes.com/article/20080512/CULTURE/434184108
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t5NeLyMZUYM

Firm in the Lord. Unshakable, unmistakable, undeniable.

If you have had an encounter with Jesus Christ, you shall never be able to deny Him. He knows me. I meet with Him every day. He is my Rock. He is my Ground. When everything else seems to be falling apart, everything seems to be together in Him. One day when I am put to persecution for Him, I will remember Him. He will hold me together and give me strength. I will persevere through and in His sufferings. I am surrendered to Christ. I surrendered to Him when I first met Him in 2003 and I will pledge my allegiance to Him over and over again. My God is the one true God who created this magnificent universe and hand crafted His intelligent creations. God of wonders beyond our galaxy, You are holy! Meet with me everyday as I draw close to You. Reveal to me my shortcomings and correct me. Teach me how to raise our children to love You and serve You. Thank You for Your saving grace. I confess our nation's sins. I ask for Your grace on our nation. Raise up a future generation that will carry on Your Kingdom work. Reveal Yourself to the children who will believe and trust in You. Show Your power and glory wherever Your people go. Use me. Use me. Use me for Your glory. Teach me, show me, carry me to Your throne and let me worship You with all I am and all I can do. Jesus, You are the One and Only. You are my Wings. You are the One.

BLAH

I am trying to figure out what songs to do tonight. I can't think. It's like my brain is fried. Help me God.

Out of Focus

Lord put me back in focus. Since I was pregnant with Isaac I have not had a cycle, if you know what I mean... and then last week, after 18 mths of freedom, I am again cursed with the pain and suffering of the time of the month. It threw me out of whack, out of schedule, out of hormones, out of my mind!! I feel like I am out of focus. So God help me, put me back together. Thank you!

Singleness

Very well then, it is better to be single to serve the Lord. There are many things God has put on my heart. Gifts, burden, and passions. Just last night, my husband and I were talking about going places in the mid east for His sake. We know we will be overseas one day and we are waiting for that day to come. God, I am still here and I am still willing. Send me.