For the last few months, I have been challenged to live a confessed simple and submitted life. I have had a lot of experiences in life and I want everything to become part of my testimony. In seminary, the assumption is that people grew up in a Christian home and have godly parents/past. I was intimidated to becoming a pastor's wife, thinking there is some sort of shoe to fill or some job description i had to adhere to. i also thought i had to fit a certain mold in action dress etiquette and talk. now the Lord has always convicted me of not cursing, dressing modestly, eating healthily, season my conversations with grace and salt..... but my idea of a pastor/minister's wife was that i had to start wearing high heels, business looking type clothes, wear a purse, put makeup on, talk softly, etc... everything i am not! in the past few years, God has helped me understand He is not here to fit me into anyone's shoes since i won't be able to walk in them but to simply transform me continually into someone who does everything in reverence of Christ.
He LOVES me. I have a Heavenly Father who LOVES me. He is a perfect Father, the King of all Kings, the Sovereign LORD, my Savior, my Redeemer... that's all i need. Father God, all I want is to please You. Everything I do, I want to do for You. I want to do these things so I may know You, and the power of the resurrection. I will laugh, I will love, I will live, I will suffer, I will cry, I will grieve so I may know You as the Son knows You, as You know me... I will strive to know You through the Holy Spirit, through the Son who is the Word, through prayer, through song, through work, through parenting, through death, through life. So help me God, have grace on me, have mercy on me. I pray I will walk away from this life with one thought in my mind, that You, are mine, and I am Yours. Help us raise our children according to Your word and Your will. Shower Your blessings and grace upon them. Help each one of them overcome generational sins from our families. Forgive us as we exasperate them. Forgive us as we fail again and again in our relationships with You, with our spouse, and our children. Fill us with Thy Holy Spirit and continue Your ministry in us as we minister within our family and outside of our family. In Jesus' holy and awesome name I petition to You, AMEN.
