Tuesday, April 26, 2011

JW update

This past Monday my internet was down so i couldn't recruit anyone on FB to pray. But I know there are a team of people who were praying. We had our husbands who were praying. We prayed before they got there. We often feel unprepared mostly because 8 kids are running around and we are frazzled. But God always shows up when we call. From the start, we have wanted them to feel like they are still in control of the bible study so we are very prayerful as to what to suggest or say or do. Well, this week, we prayerfully invited them to lunch after our bible study next Monday. We always try to be hospitable and friendly when they get here. We talk about our weekends, kids, haircuts.... etc, to build a genuine relationship, but we all felt that just wasn't enough. We want to show them we truly truly care about them and love them outside of the bible study. This is one small step we have taken to do that. I really feel like because we have a team of 3, they are not as quick to go because they never know who they are really reaching or targeting. Even if they really just want to win me over, they'd have to take on all 3 of us. And I have found, that even though we have very very tough questions, place doubts in them, and are honest with our statement of beliefs, they are willing to research and even spread out the job of researching to us. And at some points of our time on these Mondays, we do get heated conversations, but God always helps us wiggle free and breathe. And somehow, they just keep on coming back. I believe it has been 6 weeks maybe 7, Praise be to God.

I know a lot of the more conservative believers don't agree with me opening my home to these ladies. And I get that blank stare and awkward silence when I have to explain what we are praying for on Mondays especially when I post it discreetly on FB.... I understand where everyone is coming from and their concerns. But God has surely opened a door that we couldn't have opened ourselves! Knowing that my own grandma has fallen into that belief, I could not stand by and watch them continue. Isn't that what Jesus' love is like? Seeing us fall into sin and getting stuck in eternal separation from Him, He just couldn't stand by and watch us continue! Sin and death are ugly and disgusting. They shall not triumph over He who is greater than all things in anyone's life. I don't know what He has planned for us or for M and S but I do know He has allowed us to reach them and love them. He has a grand view of what is going on and I just want to do my part. I don't know how long this is going to last but I do know this might change them eternally.

LORD Almighty, You are the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob, blessed be Your name! You are the One true God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit. I declare this truth in M, S, and my grandma's lives. Rescue them from the bondage of this false religion. God, help me to stand firm in Your truth. Continue to give me a contrite and pure heart. I want to love them with Your perfect love and Your broken heart. I want to yearn for them to return just as You yearn for them. Give me strength, patience, perseverance, and faith in this ministry. We cannot do it without You. Penetrate their minds, hearts, souls, and bodies. Let them know who You are! Reveal Yourself to them through Your word and Holy Spirit. You are able to do everything and nothing is impossible for You. Help us remember this and continue on this journey knowing that You have gone before us and are on our side. Continue to give me a heart for my mom, and prepare my dad's heart as he comes this summer. Break through it and prepare it. In Your Son's holy name I present my case, AMEN.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Golgotha - The Skull

1 Then Pilate took Jesus and had him flogged. 2 The soldiers twisted together a crown of thorns and put it on his head. They clothed him in a purple robe 3 and went up to him again and again, saying, “Hail, king of the Jews!” And they slapped him in the face. 4 Once more Pilate came out and said to the Jews gathered there, “Look, I am bringing him out to you to let you know that I find no basis for a charge against him.” 5 When Jesus came out wearing the crown of thorns and the purple robe, Pilate said to them, “Here is the man!” 6 As soon as the chief priests and their officials saw him, they shouted, “Crucify! Crucify!” But Pilate answered, “You take him and crucify him. As for me, I find no basis for a charge against him.” 7 The Jewish leaders insisted, “We have a law, and according to that law he must die, because he claimed to be the Son of God.” 89 and he went back inside the palace. “Where do you come from?” he asked Jesus, but Jesus gave him no answer. 10 “Do you refuse to speak to me?” Pilate said. “Don’t you realize I have power either to free you or to crucify you?” 11 Jesus answered, When Pilate heard this, he was even more afraid, “You would have no power over me if it were not given to you from above. Therefore the one who handed me over to you is guilty of a greater sin.” 12 From then on, Pilate tried to set Jesus free, but the Jewish leaders kept shouting, “If you let this man go, you are no friend of Caesar. Anyone who claims to be a king opposes Caesar.” 13 When Pilate heard this, he brought Jesus out and sat down on the judge’s seat at a place known as the Stone Pavement (which in Aramaic is Gabbatha). 14 It was the day of Preparation of the Passover; it was about noon. “Here is your king,” Pilate said to the Jews. 15 But they shouted, “Take him away! Take him away! Crucify him!” “Shall I crucify your king?” Pilate asked. “We have no king but Caesar,” the chief priests answered. 1617 Carrying his own cross, he went out to the place of the Skull (which in Aramaic is called Golgotha). 18 There they crucified him, and with him two others—one on each side and Jesus in the middle. 19 Pilate had a notice prepared and fastened to the cross. It read: JESUS OF NAZARETH, THE KING OF THE JEWS. 20 Many of the Jews read this sign, for the place where Jesus was crucified was near the city, and the sign was written in Aramaic, Latin and Greek. 21 The chief priests of the Jews protested to Pilate, “Do not write ‘The King of the Jews,’ but that this man claimed to be king of the Jews.” 22 Pilate answered, “What I have written, I have written.” 23 When the soldiers crucified Jesus, they took his clothes, dividing them into four shares, one for each of them, with the undergarment remaining. This garment was seamless, woven in one piece from top to bottom. 24 “Let’s not tear it,” they said to one another. “Let’s decide by lot who will get it.” This happened that the scripture might be fulfilled that said, “They divided my clothes among them
and cast lots for my garment.” So this is what the soldiers did. 25 Near the cross of Jesus stood his mother, his mother’s sister, Mary the wife of Clopas, and Mary Magdalene. 26 When Jesus saw his mother there, and the disciple whom he loved standing nearby, he said to her, Finally Pilate handed him over to them to be crucified. So the soldiers took charge of Jesus.
“Woman, here is your son,” 27 and to the disciple, “Here is your mother.” From that time on, this disciple took her into his home. 28 Later, knowing that everything had now been finished, and so that Scripture would be fulfilled, Jesus said, “I am thirsty.” 29 A jar of wine vinegar was there, so they soaked a sponge in it, put the sponge on a stalk of the hyssop plant, and lifted it to Jesus’ lips. 30 When he had received the drink, Jesus said, “It is finished.” With that, he bowed his head and gave up his spirit. (John 19, New International Version, ©2011)




Abigail spent 2 hours building her "castle." But what she doesn't know is what God can do with the gifts He gave her. She might have meant for it to be a castle, but God meant it for something else. May her hands be anointed to glorify Him and to preach the good news to all. I can't wait to see what she will be and how she will glorify God with her gifts as she grows in her faith, wisdom, and age.

Lord God, thank You for your sacrifice and thank You for the hope You gave us by Your resurrection. May You continue to expand Your Kingdom and establish Your Kingship in our hearts and in this family. We confess our sins as imperfect parents. You know I have anger issues, idleness in some areas of my life, a prideful heart, and selfish ambitions. Please continue to transform those areas and may the Holy Spirit continue to consume me from the inside out. I also ask for Your mercies as we raise our children. I will say it again, they are Yours. Help us to continue giving and dedicating them unto You. Thank You that You have great and awesome plans for our children and that Your plans for them will always surpass our plans for them. Thank You for Your promises to extend Your mercy to the generations. Please help us LORD to build this legacy to surrender all unto Jesus and to declare Your LORDship over this family line. We will continue to put Your blood over our door posts and teach our children to do so. By Your mercy and grace, we are victors over death and sin. In Jesus' awesome name. AMEN.

Jesus LIVES

Friday, April 22, 2011

Glory to Him who rescued me

Isaiah 53

1 Who has believed our message
and to whom has the arm of the LORD been revealed?
2 He grew up before him like a tender shoot,
and like a root out of dry ground.
He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to him,
nothing in his appearance that we should desire him.
3 He was despised and rejected by mankind,
a man of suffering, and familiar with pain.
Like one from whom people hide their faces
he was despised, and we held him in low esteem.

4 Surely he took up our pain
and bore our suffering,
yet we considered him punished by God,
stricken by him, and afflicted.
5 But he was pierced for our transgressions,
he was crushed for our iniquities;
the punishment that brought us peace was on him,
and by his wounds we are healed.
6 We all, like sheep, have gone astray,
each of us has turned to our own way;
and the LORD has laid on him
the iniquity of us all.

7 He was oppressed and afflicted,
yet he did not open his mouth;
he was led like a lamb to the slaughter,
and as a sheep before its shearers is silent,
so he did not open his mouth.
8 By oppression and judgment he was taken away.
Yet who of his generation protested?
For he was cut off from the land of the living;
for the transgression of my people he was punished.
9 He was assigned a grave with the wicked,
and with the rich in his death,
though he had done no violence,
nor was any deceit in his mouth.

10 Yet it was the LORD’s will to crush him and cause him to suffer,
and though the LORD makes his life an offering for sin,
he will see his offspring and prolong his days,
and the will of the LORD will prosper in his hand.
11 After he has suffered,
he will see the light of life and be satisfied;
by his knowledge my righteous servant will justify many,
and he will bear their iniquities.
12 Therefore I will give him a portion among the great,
and he will divide the spoils with the strong,
because he poured out his life unto death,
and was numbered with the transgressors.
For he bore the sin of many,
and made intercession for the transgressors.


Almighty Father, words cannot express how I feel today. A remembrance of what You have done out of great love. Indeed You have loved me before I have loved You. Indeed You have known me before I have known You. Indeed You have died for me even while I was a sinner. Thank you Lord, Thank You.

Monday, April 18, 2011

Sunday, April 17, 2011

paper due... JWs

Please pray again tomorrow around 11pm. For the same things please. AND one more... for me to be awake or just pray silently. I am attempting to finish writing a paper that is due tomorrow. I think I might go to bed at 3am. :(

Saturday, April 16, 2011

Friday, April 15, 2011

how do You do it

my FATHER, how do You have so much long-suffering and love for people who don't see a need for reconciliation? my mom and i are not mad at each other or fighting. but there is also no true relationship. i yearn for a genuine relationship with her. i yearn to reconcile with her under the superficial okayness of our relationship. is this how You feel about the world? You long so much for the world to reconcile with You but they turn away and ignore their own longing for You. Teach me how to pray. Teach me what to pray. Teach me to endure this pain for my mother. You have given me the desire to reach out. Give me the love for her that surpasses all understanding Lord. Give me the opportunities to reach out and give her the desire to reconcile with me and You. I pray for Your guards to conquer her house and rid of all darkness. I pray that You will send angels to fight for her. I pray You will give one believer the desire to reach out to her. Someone to pray for her and challenge her. I pray my mom will receive it with gladness. LORD, have mercy on her. Tell me what to do and I will do it.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

blogging revival?

don't know what's going on, my written journal is obviously suffering because i've been blogging more these days. but i have felt a need to these days.

i've been praying for a heart of compassion and love towards my mom. the same heart i was praying for in order to forgive my dad and reconcile with him. growing up, my relationship with my dad wasn't that bad. he always sat down and did homework with me. although later on he confessed it's because he thought i was slow and needed more help hahahaha. i think being the child after my brother who's mentally handicapped made them more concerned about me?

he has always been the one i adored. i remember he used to discipline me with a belt. i was always the one in trouble and misunderstood. i remember one time (2nd grade?) i did something to deserve discipline. i stood in front of him crying. he hit me with the belt and i just broke. something happened that day because he took me into his arms and sighed, "if you weren't bad i wouldn't have had to discipline you. it's ok, it's over." something about my crying or my reaction to his anger made him never to use a belt on me again.

im not sure if that was a good thing though hahahahahha. it just wasn't helping anyway. i was so stubborn and i was so full of sin. no amount of their angry discipline did anything. that's another story... in short, i had an okay relationship with my dad. he was always angry and he was the traditional chinese father, but i wanted a genuine relationship with him, not just a good one. many things happened for the past 10-15 years, a lot of hurt and betrayal, and i couldn't talk to him. i knew crying every time i thought about my dad or talked to my dad was unhealthy. i avoided his phone calls and emails. one day, i've had it. i cried out to God and i wanted this to be done with. He gave me a love for my dad I have never had before. He gave me His love for my dad. He gave me His forgiveness for him. suddenly, nothing mattered anymore. the things my dad has done, are doing and will do just didn't seem to my concern anymore. all i wanted was for him to be saved.

LORD, that is the heart i want to have for my mom.

Rise Up : )

Monday, April 11, 2011

Always up to something

God You have been stirring something in me and I finally know what it is. It is a burden. A burden for my homeland, a burden for my people, a burden for my lost relatives and family. I have never yearned to go back to Hong Kong this way before. When I was a foolish teenager, I longed to leave this place. When I left, I yearned to visit my friends and the pleasures there. When I lost touch with most of my friends, I have stopped thinking about it. Then You saved my soul. You turned my life around and You gave me a godly man to serve alongside with. You sent me on missions for 3 months in foreign lands with strangers and You used me. I was on my way back to the States after 3 long months in Central and SE Asia bouncing between 6 nations. Incidentally, one of them was Hong Kong. So I shared with my dad who was there to see me for an hour. Then, You let me cross path with a taxi driver. I asked him if he had given his life to Jesus and to my surprise, he said yes! He said he went to church but is discouraged. Right there, You told me to encourage him to be a bold believer and to go back because You are calling him back. It was such a simple encounter yet profound for me. Let's fast forward to just a year back, Lord, You gave me a dream. My pastor, yes, Bob, was showing me something about Hong Kong and I said well, you will need a plan and connections to make it happen. He said, well, you are going with me. And You remember what I did in my dream..... LAUGH! I woke up thinking... UH OH, I just laughed at God... Then, http://witnesshk.com/... and one of my good friends who's like a brother became a believer, and on and on and on and on..... Yes You have successfully bombarded me! Lord, What is it You want me to do? Please make it clear. You know what I would LOVE to do is to lead worship at a Passion conference for the Chinese people in any part of China. ;) I'm JUST SAYIN!



A beautiful song in Mandarin - Jesus I need You

Sunday, April 10, 2011

please pray - it's time again

Tomorrow M and S will come visit again. We are going to try focusing on salvation and Jesus' Deity. Please pray earnestly:

1. the Holy Spirit will cover and engulf my house
2. all 8 children will be protected from all evil
3. that God will equip us with His armor so we can stand firm
4. Jesus will reveal Himself through the Word, through us, and through miraculous ways
5. to remember this is indeed God's battle
6. that we will be open to the Spirit's prompting
7. that every evil presence and spirit around M and S will not be allowed to follow them in
8. for mercy and grace upon us
9. keep our focus on His prompting, His Words, and the Truth
10. keep our focus on the topics we studied, and that the Spirit will bring those knowledge into our lips
11. keep the Word of God open and flowing and have the courage to say NO to the other sources when brought up

LORD GOD, I confess that we fall short of Your glory and Your majesty. Have mercy on Your servants! I know this is a real spiritual battle and that our Enemy even at this hour is prowling around like a hungry lion, just waiting to injure us. But I know You are stronger and higher than the Enemy. You are bigger and You are more powerful. I declare Your Kingdom in our lives and thank You for going before us in this battle. It is not our battle. It is Yours. You have the Way to M and S hearts and You have plans for their lives. LORD protect our children, be with them as we meet. Cover them with Your Spirit and calm them. Especially our younger ones LORD, help them to be content and satisfied. Build a wall of fire around our house so no evil things can ever come near. Post Your Guards at our door posts and defend this place. Be among us and speak through us. Bring up the knowledge we have learned in Your Spirit and Your Word so we can stand firm against them. Penetrate their hearts and souls with Your Sword. Impress upon hearts so our brothers and sisters in Christ will pray like wild fire for us. God thank You for doing a mighty work. You are the most awesomest EVER. AMEN.

Thursday, April 7, 2011

episode 3

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

please pray Mondays at 11am -Noon

This started when M and S knocked on the door a couple of weeks ago on Monday around 10:30am. I was with my mentee and I just did not want to turn them away! My grandma is a JW so naturally I told them. With the intentions to overwhelm them with questions, they decided they would do some research and come back to do these "bible studies". I invited another sister in Christ from the seminary to couple with me. For until the day they stand up and leave for good, Lord willing, we will continue to pray, learn, fish, and plant the Truth.

The last part of 2John gave me doubts when I had first invited them in and back the next week. Especially in verse 10 and 11, "If anyone comes to you and does not bring this teaching, do not take them into your house or welcome them. Anyone who welcomes them shares in their wicked work."

With godly counsel from countless women, prayers, and discernment for this situation, here are 3 things I have learned:
1. pray and know God's will in the situation
2. the study bible - inviting them with a special blessing, to approve of their ministry, letting them teach without opposition etc is dangerous
3. inviting people of different faiths, with the intentions to fish for their souls, into your home is not a sin

So, since then, I have been reading articles, books, testimonies, listening to sermons so we can better stand for Christ and what He died and rose again for. These ladies are real people with real hurts and souls.

After this past Monday's session, my heart went out to my grandma. In all these years, she has gone knocking on hundreds of doors, I wonder how many followers of Christ slammed the door on her face, or plainly told her, "im saved", or hid from her. Who? Who had the courage and the perseverance to fish for her? I know nothing is coincidental. God, You are stirring yet again, something inside me. I'm Yours and I will do Your bidding. Pour Your knowledge, wisdom, heart, and love in me. Let Your light shine through me. There is nothing too difficult for You. I plead my case before You Lord, look at these people. They are lost and they are led away by false prophets! Have mercy and bring them back! Reveal Yourself to them, speak to them, shake their faiths in these false religions, and change their course. Your will be done. AMEN.

http://4witness.org/jehovahs_witness/jw-witness-door.php
http://4jehovah.org/ex-jehovahs-witness-stories/
http://www.amazon.com/Jehovahs-Witnesses-Answered-Verse/dp/0801077397/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1301715668&sr=1-1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0xo6FH9tTt4&feature=youtube_gdata_player