BLAH

I am trying to figure out what songs to do tonight. I can't think. It's like my brain is fried. Help me God.

Out of Focus

Lord put me back in focus. Since I was pregnant with Isaac I have not had a cycle, if you know what I mean... and then last week, after 18 mths of freedom, I am again cursed with the pain and suffering of the time of the month. It threw me out of whack, out of schedule, out of hormones, out of my mind!! I feel like I am out of focus. So God help me, put me back together. Thank you!

Singleness

Very well then, it is better to be single to serve the Lord. There are many things God has put on my heart. Gifts, burden, and passions. Just last night, my husband and I were talking about going places in the mid east for His sake. We know we will be overseas one day and we are waiting for that day to come. God, I am still here and I am still willing. Send me.

Remembering Kingdom Purpose

A video like this zapped me back into the horror of God's wrath. A world without absolute truth, morals, authority, or sovereignty of God. Lord, may I always remember to win a soul for Your Kingdom.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JW4LLwkgmqA

Confirmation and Affirmation

I just LOVE when I get confirmation and affirmation from God. I was all doubting myself with leading worship for these pre-teens and talking down to myself and asking the Lord for confirmation and affirmation, right? Right. Well, I got them this week! Got me thinking if I were Job, I'd never pass the test. I am so sinful, impatient, unfocused, and unfaithful. How do I remain faithful in suffering, doubt, and isolation from Him? I hate not hearing from Him, I hate not having enough time for Him, I hate being far away from Him. Without Him, my life is meaningless. It was awesome on Wednesday! I know He has given me an awesome gift in music and in leading people into worship. Lord, use me, use me, use me.

Isaiah 6:5-8
"Woe to me!" I cried. "I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips, and my eyes have seen the King, the LORD Almighty."

Then one of the seraphs flew to me with a live coal in his hand, which he had taken with tongs from the altar. With it he touched my mouth and said, "See, this has touched your lips; your guilt is taken away and your sin atoned for."

Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, "Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?"
And I said, "Here am I. Send me!"

Ear infections and all

Everyone has been sick for the past month! The kids have been affected the most. They still want to play all the time, but their diarrhea, recurring fevers and non-stop coughs have us praying constantly. We had a doctor's visit but the doctor we saw wasn't great. He was on the phone with someone else half the time we were there, and when he finally saw them, I wondered if he was certified. The nurse didn't even take their temperatures! They had fever, lost weight, coughing crazy, and had no appetite. So last Friday, we took them both to the ER and got antibiotics for Isaac's severe ear infection. They both have upper respiratory infections or something like croup. Now both Phill and I are sick also. Life in TX is going along. There was a tornado warning yesterday afternoon and we hid in the bathroom. That was fun. I don't know where God is taking me or my talents. God I ask you for more faith and grace. Speak to my heart and let the Holy Spirit guide me and teach me.