Yawn

Lately Esther's been waking at wee hours to play. So... yawn....

I am sure we'll laugh at this one day, but it sure wasn't funny when I came downstairs from feeding Esther to finding Abigail and Isaac eating "beans" from a game. How did they not know that those were not real? When I saw Isaac kinda chewing on one, I asked him, hey buddy, don't eat those, they are not really beans, just toys. Abigail turned around with a shocked look and said, they are not real? I looked at her and said, of course not! It's a game! Did you eat them too??? She started to panic and said, yeah.... I ate 3!! I can't say I did not freak out. After 5 mins of screaming into an imaginary pillow, I calmly explained to her that the beans will probably just come out in her poop in a day or two. WOw....

Dad and Leo left today. I am glad they came. Leo had fun at joy zone on Sun and I think Dad's heart is more receptive to the gospel. I thought this visit was gonna be a little more stressful but it turned out fine. Now, the Lord has to work on my heart towards the inlaws who are coming in just 2 weeks. I will be sooooo grouchy for the next two weeks. I just don't know what to expect and not to expect. I am a little scared and a little reluctant still but I know God requires me to forgive. It is a long process and a conflict. I need to keep on forgiving.

God, keep transforming me and making me holy for Your glory. I pray my dad will seek You with his heart. I pray You will give him more opportunities to hear Your word and for him to seek Your face. Continue to use me for Your kingdom work. I pray wisdom over my children and my husband. I ask for more patience, love and encouraging words. And yes, help me to reconcile with my in laws. AMEn.

I love how Isaac says bana for banana

I know the Lord is with me. I posted yet another controversial article http://www.facebook.com/ext/share.php?sid=120021161816&h=w2m2Z&u=idwcV&ref=mf on facebook and comments came flooding. I guess my liberal friends don't like it when I do that. I knew it was a spiritual warfare so I prayed and prayed before I did anything else and my prayer was answered by a friend who posted 2 min before me. I didn't feel alone. I knew God is a miracle worker. I know He was able to show me and affirm me in my faith. He was so full of grace. God thank you for showing up. I can always count on You.

My heart was so grieved with my toddlers today. Abigail lied twice, disobeyed me about jumping across Esther, and ignored me when I asked her to come to me. Isaac... Oh Isaac, he spilled everything that was in his hands on purpose the whole day. He sprayed cleaners all over the video camera, he too ignored me when I asked him to come to me. He was a terror today. I was soooo discouraged. I asked people for prayers. I know this is an uphill thing. I have to fight for my kids' hearts and souls. I know that. God help. I know You are the only one able to do this. You are the One to call them to You. All I care is that they will know you and love you and obey you. Give us godly wisdom. Help us follow You. Help us capture their hearts for You. Give them a consuming passion to pursue You. Give me the patience and wisdom to deal with them when they fall short of You glory. Help me gently restore them into Your righteousness and Your love. I need Your help, affirmation and Your grace. AMEN.

Praise Him all heavenly saints proclaim

Praise the Lord. He has given us wisdom to challenge each other never to yell at each other or at the children. We have committed every morning to do so, and our relationships have gotten more intimate, loving, and peaceful. All we did was one thing. Completely eliminate any yelling. That was it. So simple. And it worked! I am sooo glad we listened and obeyed Him.

One Thing (PS27) Charlie Hall

Single minded, whole hearted, one thing I ask (x2)

That I may gaze upon Your beauty Oh Lord
That I may seek Your Holy Face
That I may know You in an intimate way
And follow after You all of my days


All of life comes down to just one thing
and that's to know You oh Jesus and make You known

There's nothing else I can add to Psalm 27. That's all I am. That's all I do. That's all what our family is all about. That's it. This is it. One thing. To know Him and to make Him known. AMen.