Submission to Christ without submission to the Scriptures is submission to a self-made Christ, not submission to Christ. -John Piper
The outcome of submission is in the hands of the Lord. - Debora Pearl (pw at birchman)
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Worship
I've been at the shed for 2 years leading worship since I doubted God and tried to give up what He's called me to do. I think within a week I had written that blog, we received a call from the children's pastor asking if Phill led worship and Phill said no, and she asked then who did God want from your family to lead worship at the shed? And Phill said, my wife. I pray I don't forget these moments when God shows up. He has given me lots of affirmation and people who carries me through. And I will tell you, every week I get up there, I still get butterflies. I'll be honest, I have even hyperventilated. I'm blessed that the children's worship pastor took me under her wings and let me grow. There's so much I want to do, learn, and expand. But I know it's all in God's timing. He says be still, be patient. God I worship You and You alone. I don't want to lead worship if in my heart You find any sign I am not worshiping You! I hate that I seek affirmation from anyone while I lead worship. I hate that I am distracted sometimes when I sing. I hate that I can't fully worship You after a long day. Lord, I don't want to do it if this is not honoring for You. I don't want to be on that stage throwing up because my focus is so much on how I'd look or sound or lead! God take that away from me. Fill me with Your Spirit and help me focus on You while I am leading these kids, pointing them towards You! I just want to worship You with the gifts You have given me. I long to be with You. Help me to love what You love and hate what You hate. Humble me and use me if You want to. I am blessed to be called Yours. I love you Lord. You are my Savior and my God. Cleanse my heart and call me to You. I am going to wait for You. In Jesus' name I call upon. AMEN.
["Choose honor, partner with the vision, and be faithful with what you are given. Earn the trust, honor leadership, opportunity to see what the Lord will do in my life when I am faithful with what I have right now... It's not an easy thing but a rewarding thing."
"Worship is a connection between me and God... imagine everyone corporately came in already connected to God ready to praise God."
"you can be a light shining anywhere"
"don't sing songs you cannot put your heart fully into "] - Kim Walker Smith
["Choose honor, partner with the vision, and be faithful with what you are given. Earn the trust, honor leadership, opportunity to see what the Lord will do in my life when I am faithful with what I have right now... It's not an easy thing but a rewarding thing."
"Worship is a connection between me and God... imagine everyone corporately came in already connected to God ready to praise God."
"you can be a light shining anywhere"
"don't sing songs you cannot put your heart fully into "] - Kim Walker Smith
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Prayers for Haiti
What is it like to wake up from a nightmare and have it continue as a daymare? As I shared the meaning of an earthquake to Abigail and Isaac three days ago, I also showed them some pictures and videos of Haiti. They had so many questions about this disaster and I was most touched when Isaac took my hand and said, mommy, I wanna pray for them. So the three of us, held hands and hearts, prayed for all those who were affected by the quake and for all the followers of Christ who are now stuck there to effectively show God's love to the people of that nation. Today as I worshiped the Lord, my heart continually break for them. But knowing that God is in control and that He always has a bigger plan than what is right in front of my eyes, I really started to pray that He will mobilize fellow brothers and sisters in Christ to spread their hope of eternity in Christ. It is not about the disparity of this disaster, but about the hope and harvest that will come out of the disaster.
God I pray that the nation will see the hope of Christ amidst disaster. I pray that our brothers and sisters in Christ will penetrate not just the villages to provide physical needs but also penetrate the hearts of the people to provide the good news of our Lord Jesus Christ. Your Kingdom work be done. I ask You in Jesus' name. AMEN.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
#2
Ok, so far I only have one on my NY resolution list which is to finish the one year bible and journal for Abigail. I have to say, I am working on it at my own timing. I do what I can is what I am trying to say. Which I think is ok. I am starting BSF on Wednesday mornings next week. It's gonna get busy. With 3 kids under 4, I am doing my best with every minute I have which includes resting and reflecting. Anyway, I have #2 for my list now. Here we go
2010 resolutions
1. one year bible
2. keep track of homelearning (it's really homeschooling but i have come to dislike that term in the past... day) budget, material taught, material used, and kids progress.....
wow that looked long. anyway, I have been really bad about keeping track of the homelearning stuff I have been buying and using. so.. there. lets see what we have done.
Abigail 4yrs (nov21,05):
Abilities-
intellectual: know how to write, read, spell her name and her siblings names. knows how to write, read, spell short vowel words and words with special sounds "oo", "ee", "or", "th", "sh". knows how to count to 100 with help. knows the value of each coin. knows the colors of the rainbow. knows to paint in one direction. knows how to color in different colors, shades and sections. knows when her birthday and her siblings birthdays are. knows the days of the week. knows the months of the year. knows how to read the hour hand on the clock.
spiritual: (can say these without help)
1.matt7:7-8 2.jhn3:16 3.jhn3:17 4.1tim4:12 5.eph4:29 6.prvb15:27 7.prvb10:4 8.gal5:22-23 9.deut6:5 10.jhn14:15 11.jhn14:6 12.matt7:9 13.1jhn1:5-6 14.rom3:23 15.2peter3:18 16.luke2:1-40 17.col3:23 18.eph6:1 19:eph6:11 20.Gen1:1 21.Gen1:27 22.Josh24:15
physical: knows how to ride bike without training wheels, knows how to ride 2 wheel scooter, knows how to swim and float, knows how to do a cartwheel, front roll, basic stretches and exercises, roller blade, single toe pirouette.
Enjoys - reading, dancing, cooking, taking pictures, singing, any arts and craft, swimming, playing with friends, ice cream, spaghetti, spending time with mommy
Strengths - arts and crafts, swimming, administration, classical learner
Under construction - critical thinking, shyness, self-concept
Interests - violin, piano, art, dance, swim
Isaac 2.5yrs (jun23,07):
Abilities-
intellectual: know how to spell his name and his siblings names. knows how to count to 20 with help. knows the value of pennies. knows his colors. knows to paint in one direction. knows how to color in different colors, shades and sections. knows when his birthday and his siblings birthdays are. knows the days of the week.
spiritual: (can say these with help)
1.matt7:7-8 2.jhn3:16 3.jhn3:17 4.1tim4:12 5.eph4:29 6.prvb15:27 7.prvb10:4 8.gal5:22-23 9.deut6:5 10.jhn14:15 11.jhn14:6 12.matt7:9 13.1jhn1:5-6 14.rom3:23 15.2peter3:18 16.luke2:1-40 17.col3:23 18.eph6:1 19:eph6:11
physical: knows how to ride bike with training wheels, knows how to flutter kick, knows how to do a cartwheel, front roll, basic stretches and exercises, roller blade, double toe pirouette. knows how to kick, follow, and dribble soccer ball. knows how to throw and catch balls. knows how to ride 2-wheel scooter.
Enjoys - anything physical, reading, playing drums, playing with daddy
Strengths - gymnastics, soccer, creativity, outgoing, eclectic learner
Under construction - critical thinking, individuality, self control, sensitivity, phonics
Interests - anything physical, reading, drums, piano
God Help me to be more organized and help me to spot what gifts You have given them. Give me wisdom to raise them and help them develop their strengths. Open my eyes to their learning styles and teach me to be graceful with them. I pray You will open Abigail's eyes to Your plan of salvation and to her need for You at the conditions of her heart. AMEN.
2010 resolutions
1. one year bible
2. keep track of homelearning (it's really homeschooling but i have come to dislike that term in the past... day) budget, material taught, material used, and kids progress.....
wow that looked long. anyway, I have been really bad about keeping track of the homelearning stuff I have been buying and using. so.. there. lets see what we have done.
Abigail 4yrs (nov21,05):
Abilities-
intellectual: know how to write, read, spell her name and her siblings names. knows how to write, read, spell short vowel words and words with special sounds "oo", "ee", "or", "th", "sh". knows how to count to 100 with help. knows the value of each coin. knows the colors of the rainbow. knows to paint in one direction. knows how to color in different colors, shades and sections. knows when her birthday and her siblings birthdays are. knows the days of the week. knows the months of the year. knows how to read the hour hand on the clock.
spiritual: (can say these without help)
1.matt7:7-8 2.jhn3:16 3.jhn3:17 4.1tim4:12 5.eph4:29 6.prvb15:27 7.prvb10:4 8.gal5:22-23 9.deut6:5 10.jhn14:15 11.jhn14:6 12.matt7:9 13.1jhn1:5-6 14.rom3:23 15.2peter3:18 16.luke2:1-40 17.col3:23 18.eph6:1 19:eph6:11 20.Gen1:1 21.Gen1:27 22.Josh24:15
physical: knows how to ride bike without training wheels, knows how to ride 2 wheel scooter, knows how to swim and float, knows how to do a cartwheel, front roll, basic stretches and exercises, roller blade, single toe pirouette.
Enjoys - reading, dancing, cooking, taking pictures, singing, any arts and craft, swimming, playing with friends, ice cream, spaghetti, spending time with mommy
Strengths - arts and crafts, swimming, administration, classical learner
Under construction - critical thinking, shyness, self-concept
Interests - violin, piano, art, dance, swim
Isaac 2.5yrs (jun23,07):
Abilities-
intellectual: know how to spell his name and his siblings names. knows how to count to 20 with help. knows the value of pennies. knows his colors. knows to paint in one direction. knows how to color in different colors, shades and sections. knows when his birthday and his siblings birthdays are. knows the days of the week.
spiritual: (can say these with help)
1.matt7:7-8 2.jhn3:16 3.jhn3:17 4.1tim4:12 5.eph4:29 6.prvb15:27 7.prvb10:4 8.gal5:22-23 9.deut6:5 10.jhn14:15 11.jhn14:6 12.matt7:9 13.1jhn1:5-6 14.rom3:23 15.2peter3:18 16.luke2:1-40 17.col3:23 18.eph6:1 19:eph6:11
physical: knows how to ride bike with training wheels, knows how to flutter kick, knows how to do a cartwheel, front roll, basic stretches and exercises, roller blade, double toe pirouette. knows how to kick, follow, and dribble soccer ball. knows how to throw and catch balls. knows how to ride 2-wheel scooter.
Enjoys - anything physical, reading, playing drums, playing with daddy
Strengths - gymnastics, soccer, creativity, outgoing, eclectic learner
Under construction - critical thinking, individuality, self control, sensitivity, phonics
Interests - anything physical, reading, drums, piano
God Help me to be more organized and help me to spot what gifts You have given them. Give me wisdom to raise them and help them develop their strengths. Open my eyes to their learning styles and teach me to be graceful with them. I pray You will open Abigail's eyes to Your plan of salvation and to her need for You at the conditions of her heart. AMEN.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
ye shall also be rationed out when ye are old and sick
original article on the end of this web page
Hold the Mayo (Clinic)
On June 3 of this year, President Obama wrote a letter to two Senate Chairmen who, at the time, were working to overhaul the health care system: Senators Ted Kennedy (D-Mass.) and Max Baucus (D-Mont.). In the correspondence, President Obama encouraged them to "ask why places like the Mayo Clinic in Minnesota, the Cleveland Clinic in Ohio, and other institutions can offer the highest quality care at costs well below the national norm. We need to learn from their successes and replicate those best practices across our country. That's how we can achieve reform that preserves and strengthens what's best about our health care system, while fixing what is broken." A little over a month later, the Mayo Clinic spoke against the House health care bill, which President Obama endorsed, saying "[t]he real losers will be the citizens of the United States." What would President Obama make of the Wall Street Journal reporting that the Mayo Clinic will no longer accept Medicare patients at its primary care clinic in Arizona as part of a pilot program to determine if it should also drop Medicare patients at other facilities serving more than 500,000 seniors?
Hold the Mayo (Clinic)
On June 3 of this year, President Obama wrote a letter to two Senate Chairmen who, at the time, were working to overhaul the health care system: Senators Ted Kennedy (D-Mass.) and Max Baucus (D-Mont.). In the correspondence, President Obama encouraged them to "ask why places like the Mayo Clinic in Minnesota, the Cleveland Clinic in Ohio, and other institutions can offer the highest quality care at costs well below the national norm. We need to learn from their successes and replicate those best practices across our country. That's how we can achieve reform that preserves and strengthens what's best about our health care system, while fixing what is broken." A little over a month later, the Mayo Clinic spoke against the House health care bill, which President Obama endorsed, saying "[t]he real losers will be the citizens of the United States." What would President Obama make of the Wall Street Journal reporting that the Mayo Clinic will no longer accept Medicare patients at its primary care clinic in Arizona as part of a pilot program to determine if it should also drop Medicare patients at other facilities serving more than 500,000 seniors?
Sunday, January 3, 2010
HBAC
Crazy things are happening people. Phill and I are on the same page about having more babies. Naturally. After what had happened to all 3 births with CSection, we are still hopeful for a natural birth. How crazy and unhuman is this??? Maybe God has something bigger planned here and now we just have to obey and have faith. In Matthew 17, Jesus said, "if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." and Luke 17,"If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mulberry tree, 'Be uprooted and planted in the sea,' and it will obey you." Hebrews 11 "Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." I've been soaking in His teachings of faith for the past week now and I am trying to figure out how in the world I can gain more faith. I am going to need more and more and more. I want to have more and I want to be sure of what I don't know. It is about living a life of abandonment. It is about giving up my will and living His. It's all crazy isn't it? But I am willing. Not because I am adventurous. Not because I am brave. Not because I can. But because I cannot. I am still afraid. And I am imperfect. I pray all I do will ultimately glorify Him. So this time around, we both have peace about waiting for at least 2 years before we get pregnant again. We will be saving money for a HBAC, which is homebirth after Csection. I know how people get when I say homebirth. It's scary. It's not safe. But even statistics and facts have proven that's not true. If we end up having a high risk pregnancy with health complications, then of course, we'll end up having surgery again at a hospital. But when a pregnancy has no complications, in which none of my pregnancies had any, homebirths are perfectly perfect. My hurdle is to get the babies here early, and that's one of the most important discussions i will have with my midwife. I have had 3 pregnancies and 3 babies and with each Csection, I have learned so much more about VBACs and now HBAC. I know we can do it and it's only crazy and abnormal for the America society. I have had so much struggle with no wanting any kids ever again because of my surgeries and I have prayed so much for the Lord to show us the next step, and when Phill started saying he believes God wants to bless us with more babies, I just knew I have to get reading and planning already.
Lord give me the peace. Give me the faith. Give me everything we need to obey Your will. Thank You for blessing us with Children, for it is said that our Children are arrows of our youth. Help us in this painful journey of our child birth experiences. Heal me of my fears, pains, memories, and past. I can't do this but You can. Continue to put people in our paths and prepare us for the next adventure. Show me what You will have us do. Humble me, help me decrease so You may increase. Help us to be Christ centered in parenting our kids and towards each other. We love You. We pray You will continue to mature us and draw us closer to You. Let us participate in Your Kingdom plans. I pray this in Jesus' name. AMEN.
Lord give me the peace. Give me the faith. Give me everything we need to obey Your will. Thank You for blessing us with Children, for it is said that our Children are arrows of our youth. Help us in this painful journey of our child birth experiences. Heal me of my fears, pains, memories, and past. I can't do this but You can. Continue to put people in our paths and prepare us for the next adventure. Show me what You will have us do. Humble me, help me decrease so You may increase. Help us to be Christ centered in parenting our kids and towards each other. We love You. We pray You will continue to mature us and draw us closer to You. Let us participate in Your Kingdom plans. I pray this in Jesus' name. AMEN.
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